today i finally blew up or came pretty damn close. some will laugh and some will not care but i am posting for the heck of it anyway. i was up and then gave everything back and then some. why" necause i was up 400 and needed another 600 to pay some bills.its a never ending sage with me and i just don't know if i have the proper discipline to do this. obviously i am extremely upset about my current situation and don't know what the heck to do. i have no other skills(not that i have any trading skills) and i have a family to take care of. i am actually nervous but i have to do something. i know someone is going to tell me to stop complaining and i fully understand.i'm just venting because some of you may have been in a similar situation and underdtand. anyway,i hope none of you guys get to where i am,its a horrible feeling and none of you deserve it.