Everything. I think the philosopher Joseph Campbell said "People are not looking for the meaning of life; they are looking for the experience of being alive."
I would attempt to return to the experience of the awareness that I am everything. To me, this is life. Christ!
What ARE you rambling on about now? It is as pointless being angry or not with God just as it is pointless being angry or not with the Giant at the top of Jack's Beanstalk.