I am happy to answer all question about jail life but don't expect me to rat out my cellmate, or anyone for that matter. I ain't no rat in jail its important not to be a rat, JUST TRUST ME ON THAT ONE
yeah cold has it all figured out watch him demonstrate his skills here: <object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Se8tv5mOadQ&hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Se8tv5mOadQ&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object> and watch him demonstrate his skills when he was a bit younger here: <object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/gI7qjx8GF2M&hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/gI7qjx8GF2M&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object>
Hey Cold, Sure, there will be days where you will feel like this. But then there will be other days in which you will feel much better. Take it easy, breathe, exercise, have fun and do something new such as cooking or yoga, painting, learn a new language, etc.
None of us really learn anything. I don't think age is the key. As we get older we just come to more of an accommodation with ourself, our shortcomings, life's injustices etc. Insight is possible but it is usually nihilistic in its conclusion (ultimate futility/absurdity of life). There are too many people and not enough elephants, whales and tigers (we have killed them all). An idividual's pathetic and egotistical trip on this planet is quite insignificant. It is when that person starts to try and make his life meaningful that all the problems start. Stop trying to be someone and enjoy the ride down the hill in the sun with the birds singing and the smell of the pine woods playing in your nostrils. All our lives are an absurdity. When you realise this you can start living (you might as well) because it occasionally offers glimmers of pleasure. Savour these.