Good bye cruel world ... I am leaving trading for good. When your life is a rat race, the best thing you can hope for is to be the fastest rat. I've had enough of this BS after 5 years and I wish you all good luck and farewell.
I hear ya man. At the 5 year mark I felt about the same as you. Now at the 9 year mark, I'm glad I stuck with it. The agony was all worth it in the end. Just some food for thought
Thanks for the inspiration but after all this time I realize it's just ME. I've spent more time studying myself over the last few years then I would have ever thought possible and the bottomline is I do not have the discipline necessary to do this for a living. For a long time I thought that if I changed my approach to viewing the market I would find some method that worked with my personality (trend, counter trend, mean reversion, pairs trading etc, etc...) but it turns out I'm just a undisciplined person with no emotional control. Man, it's hard to say that but it's the truth. A wise man knows when he's beat and knows when to walk away, even though it hurts like a bitch to give up like this.
Many a business owner have found out that one of the hardest things to do is to "cut your losses short"; it is such a fine line. Good luck.