No disrespect intended to the OP, but this is hands down the funniest post I've ever read on here. Cheers mate, and best of luck!!!!
Do you not understand what everyone is saying? DON'T TRADE! But for some reason, you seem to want to trade even though you don't have money that you can lose, and have proven you can't trade by wiping out an account (that should be going to medical bills). The best thing you can do is to keep your day job, and negotiate the medical bills. BTW, if this story is real, is the loved one someone related to you?
Please look at all psychology posts. You are f***ing crazy if this is really how you think. Get out of the business now. Not intended to be mean just read your post and believe me when I tell you this that there are better alternatives to pay off what you are going through. Financially and emotionally. Someone need your attention more than this business. Close account get the f out of dodge.
By the way this is a scary post considering I saw a guy show up one night at a casino after he won a 2k scratch and win ticket. At blackjack table told every one he's been broke for a while and couldn't feed kids. But since he one 2k luck changed. Put all 2k on one hand, LOST. Tearing at table grown man. Very scary post. GET OUT. This story should make a point.
also check out alternative medicine, most of disease can be cured with strengthen your immune system thru natural foods.
I really do appreciate all the well heeded advice, and I will follow the advice like I have mentioned and stay away from trading for dough. However, I am still keen to understand as much as I could about this industry. After reading through all the post, I am starting to feel that no one makes money in trading or no one is confident they will make money in trading. Or trading is not a profession, as the chances of winning in trading is lower than a visit to the casino. And these are from the words of many traders who have been trading for some 20 years. If what is stated above is true, why are you guys still trading? Or is there some secrets that must be learned, that if learned will lead to trading success, but not easily obtainable secrets.
Well I might as well give my fangs worth. If you are trading under duress don't trade. If you want to lear how to trade, don't start with FOREX. Trade the qqqqs, open a small account with Scotttrade, and learn how to swing to swing trade something that is a real market and not semi artificial. You will find all sorts of help to trade the qqqqs and if you swing, you can avoid the pattern daytrader rule. Now as you start ouut you will never make enough money to pay for anything, and if you break even the first year you will be on the right path. It takes time to learn how to trade and is not something you wake up one morning and start doing. So if this is a real request, take the previous advice and forget about profitability for at least a year or more or maybe never. The Ever Helpful VIPER
Cleve, I see that you are using trading to get your mind of all those shit happened to you and your love one. Take those previous advices, but come back to this when you solve the current problem, huh? Anyway, best of luck non-trading-wise...