also... just wanted to acknowledge all the very kind PM's i got yesterday after i posted evidence of yesterday's debacle, and thank everyone for their kind/supportive words. as i'm sure many can relate to- my close friends are not traders (NEITHER AM I, btw- see yesterday's post!) and just cannot relate to the mind that is trading- especially when it goes that wrong. hell, the only ones who know about the loss are the readers of this thread. may stay that way, as the conversations either go nowhere or are frustrating. anyway, thanks for the therapy. it helped/helps. the hard part for me is that this is a recurring problem (though my previous 'best' was 'only' -47m); and, despite my best efforts, i seem to learn nothing. struggling to adapt my trading to not get run over by the big ballistic moves. anyway, i'll stfu, as this is drifting farther OT than i had intended, though the start of this post has everything to do with this thread... thanks..
figured i'd post tonight's blotter now just in case i screw the pooch trading in the morning. a good night. the sgxnk weekend hold panned out, and i traded pretty well all night. actually was pretty conservative (but of course! if i'd traded the # of contracts i traded last week, i'd have made 3x this amount). sh/w/coulda... nonetheless, very happy with the night...