If you spent ten minutes with me while I was using, your entire perspective would shift dramatically, and your media induced 'doped up junkie' stereotype perceptions would fly right out the window. <b>Never</b> nodding off, <b>never</b> itching uncontrollably, <b>never</b> once od'ed. Lucidity and alertness are <b>heightened</b>, not dimmed. The only way you could even tell would be if you checked the size of my pupils (or if I rolled up a sleeve). Millions of opiate painkiller prescriptions are written every year, and you don't see all those people driving around recklessly and uncontrollably, do you? But I know you can't be convinced. Stephen Colbert famously remarked that George W. Bush's style was to "decide something on Monday and firmly stick with his convictions on Wednesday... no matter what happened on Tuesday." It's not just Bush- all of you 'hard-J' people are like that. I guess that's why stop-loss orders exist. Without them your type would just ride every losing position into the ground. B.R.: You're a 'J' too... but I wouldn't hold that against you. Even Ayn Rand was an INTJ. To see what that's all about, check out this thread: http://www.elitetrader.com/vb/showthread.php?s=&threadid=62171&highlight=intp and this quick test: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
Actually I do understand where you are coming from -- been there -- done that, but not with opiates. I crossed the barrier with benzodiazipines because I had a great doctor. Now my boy, you have to pay the price of going through withdrawal if you want to get off the opiates. There is no other way out!
This will surprise you, and perhaps you won't even believe me... but I'm actually 15 months clean. However, I felt and performed a lot better when I wasn't. At this point, the only thing really holding me back from going back to it is the legal bullshit. I barely escaped a felony conviction the first time, and I just don't like my odds of repeating that feat if I were to get busted once more.
R.M.: Now I know what the heck you were talking about. Originally I thought J meant Jesus people, but that didn't make any sense because Vhehn is a hardcore atheist. I think you are reading too much into the word "Judger." All it means in the Myers-Briggs personality type indicator is that these people prefer a structured approached to life vs. an open/flexible approach for percerveirs. It does not mean that judgers are judgemental.
Checkout the books on drug addiction by drug addiction specialist, Abraham J. Twerski, medical director of the Gateway Rehabilitation Center. He may have some videos on this online as well. BTW, if you feel you performed better while you were on the opiates then you haven't completed the withdrawal process.