hmmmmmm, If I somehow could not know the results of my actions -- would I still attach emotional value to them???
hmmmmmm, If I am disturbed or elated by external circumstances -- is it they that bother me or my just perception of them???
hmmmmmm, If I become haughty and elated in times of good fortune -- how will I respond in times of misfortune???
hmmmmmm, Even if I know the macro probability and expectation of a "set-up" -- can I ever predict with any degree of certainy what her next move will be??? Can I ever be certain of anything -- or is every action nothing more than a leap in the dark??? Is there a finite or infinite number of ways she can express herself at any given moment in time???
Do you ever feel like a CONTRARIAN? I'm thinking of a movie I once saw with Dustin Hoffman - "little big man" or something.. He played a white man living in an old west native american tribe. One of the members of the tribe was a "true contrarian" He did everything backwards, walked backwards, said the opposite of what he meant, etc. His was an accepted role in the community. (practicality wise though, it is very difficult to be a true contrarian - drink water, take a dump, etc.) when i first saw this movie, i felt an instant "destiny resonance" with this character. like when a kid sees a fire truck and "knows" what he is going to be when he grows up.. lol