I feel very similar. You sound like you and your wife are very happy. I love my isolation during the trading week. But other than doing work around the family farm, my weekends are very empty since my long term girlfriend and I broke up a couple of months ago. I feel like I need social contact, but not too much. I actually applied for a weekend bartending job on a riverboat. This seems perfect, since I will be in a beautiful setting, and be in contact with people without having to get too close to anyone. And it will help me move on from the break up. But who knows? Maybe I'll meet some people I can tolerate. I have some close friends, but we rarely see each other, and I'm not going to go out by myself just to try to socialize with people. That's not my style.
Fertile ground for creating a good trader, every cloud has a silver lining. When my first marriage broke up, I lost not only wife but two children for 23 years and remained single, so had plenty of time alone. Without this, I doubt I would be the profitable trader I am now. Had numerous girlfriends along the way but still lived alone. Even now, my current wife travels overseas for months at a time, so back to square one, alone. I use that opportunity though to improve my trading. Although alone at times (she is home now) am not lonely, have a few friends here and there, mobile phones and internet keep the bridge open. ET for me has been very very good, best website by far.
Thank you, I will watch, but one of my culprits is also Sarcoidosis with no known cure, I have been able to lose 226 lbs of the 262 lbs I gained when I was on heavy dosages of steroids to get a handle on the inflammation in my lungs. My neurologist took me off steroids and now taking the root with tea and capsules of Tumeric(India spice), I have many other little quirks problems with myself, my list of aliments has become huge and hospitals love me, besides glaucoma now have and cataracts, fatty liver, use cpap, Klinefelters syndrome, rheumatoid arthritis, taking blood thinners as am more likely to get blood clots again due to Sarcoidosis, take added hormones as body has pretty much stopped producing. Been told missed diagnosed of being bi-polar and diagnosed with Aspergers I get frustrated with self and act more bi-polar. I am at constant pain of something always hurting but seldom take pain meds-once you on them downhill from then. And yet through to a degree I have gotten better by not eating meat, huge reduction of dairy, no fats or salt, heart very strong, work out at gym 2-3 times a day, walk 7 miles a day besides my Starbucks visits-my only vice of drinking just regular coffee cause I am on 1,000 calorie diet a day, no fancy drinks for me. Have beaten cancer three times in ten years, radiation has taken most of my teeth away, 3 brain surgeries/procedures I definitely have lost parts of me and photo memory, 4 kidney surgeries last and this year cause kidney stone removal went bad with tear due to inflammation scaring. Got rid of Fibromyalgeria with diet change. The very best care I get is actually from VA and Army hospital as I am a disabled veteran, but I go to a slew of outside physicians here and have gone overseas. I started going back to psychiatrists last year, I do Hear and see what is not there since age twelve, huge depression, also paranoid and for good reason, people steal from me and I go after them in the courts, have gone after vendors, money is no object for me to give them pain as they have hurt me. The hearing is actually cool and helps me doing system development in trading, as I getting close to finding/ discovering something I hear tones. But since very young I hear also horrible or develop thoughts of what is in scary movies and much worse. Terms of being a "psychopath" and "sociopath" is certainly possible, had very abusive upbringing from a father who had to been high level Aspergers of lacking feelings, but not all high level have had what my father had in his upbringing, but have researched all males on father side could have had Aspergers but all have committed suicide going back four generations, I am only male still living and will never take my life. Being born into Catholic church, enough said they beat you into a pulp in the 60s. But I do know who I am and what I am, and although many have known of my colorful life till now, I have not known it to be what others think my life has been other than internally being on edge/scared. And yes have taken many tests and seen half dozen physicians labeled me Aspergers this year. Have taken many IQ tests since very young as well, always same results of surpassing Einstein. But what people don't understand of tests, you did well on them and have an ability but if you don't have the desire, you can't chalk that up to being smart. Took me three years to learn how to back up a semi truck and trailer into a tight spaces even though I knew formulas of geometry, always had problems of doing with exception of sharpshooting, parachuting and pattern breaking. Was a time I could read Arabic, Russian, Chinese, and yet still have trouble pronouncing English. My speech and how I write does not reflect I have earned three degrees, I started life with speech impediments due to Klinefelters, one of the grades I skipped in grade school had phonics, but golly gee that was not in a test, having photo memory helps in test taking but not speaking. Do I like people, I prefer my own company most of the time. I was always bullied when young by kids and beaten up, then go home and beaten up by my old man. Starting at age ten was given 23 growth hormone shots as testicles had not dropped into scrotum-they feared I never to have children and unaware of extra chromosome. I grew 13 inches in 18 months and another 3 inches in college, kids stopped picking on me, Uncle gave me steel knuckles. I don't understand most people, how they treat family or just do what they do but on purpose of being an a-hole, that's when I have deep desires to hurt and I have when I was young, but in long term of life-makes no difference to fight other peoples battles. Do I laugh when I witness a horrible car accident...no, I park and give whatever aid I been trained to do till EMS shows and quietly leave, feeling almost embarrassed, but don't want to be recognized. There are many problems dealing with people I do not want to do, but when I owned real estate---it is a given they paid fair dollar for rent and I am obligated to perform what is required and do it correctly instead of doing sloppy quick way. Most people would say I am life of the party at times and very friendly man, but inside I rather be doing back testing, sipping coffee and by myself, years goes by leaving home is tougher, but as a commitment I do what I think is right. @ElectricSavant , it is hard for me to come out of my shell or leave my home for that matter, but think in these terms, we are all humans beings trying to find our ways back home, and I don't think our Maker wants us to stay in our caves 24/7. The more we stay away, the worst these feelings stand out. Sometimes just giving someone a smile or go grocery shopping and asking clerk "Hello Sara, how is your day going" and look into their eyes, using their name-they feel appreciate of doing a very life boring job, you might end up making a new friend briefly for few minutes. I wished more people would open up a little so others would not feel like they are alone. It just takes one step then another and another. Chow baby.
I said "appears" to be...... From the fact that the person claims to be a libertarian but states that woman should have not been allowed to vote and then throws his money/power in this direction -https://www.bloomberg.com/features/2018-palantir-peter-thiel/ Well, perhaps not a self serving psychopath, maybe just an asshole. Every person that I have met or interacted with who has Asperger's had principles. Every psychopath I have met or interacted with never had principles, except the ones they feigned to get what they wanted.
Handle...TY especially from you...we are very much alike I think... but trade differently (and feel differently about backtesting). Here is your smile ES @ElectricSavant , it is hard for me to come out of my shell or leave my home for that matter, but think in these terms, we are all humans beings trying to find our ways back home, and I don't think our Maker wants us to stay in our caves 24/7. The more we stay away, the worst these feelings stand out. Sometimes just giving someone a smile or go grocery shopping and asking clerk "Hello Sara, how is your day going" and look into their eyes, using their name-they feel appreciate of doing a very life boring job, you might end up making a new friend briefly for few minutes. I wished more people would open up a little so others would not feel like they are alone. It just takes one step then another and another.
@Handle I got a fatty liver...rheumatoid arthritis ...osteo arthritus...nearly died from malaria...graves disease...irregular heart beat..bad thyroid...nearly died from thyroid storm as heart nearly blew up... I live with pain every day. Tumeric has helped me deal with the pain. I used to buy organic tumeric by the pound and eat the stuff with a spoon and wash down with water. Then I found 1md x285. Much better than the powder. I can buy 6 bottles at a time direct from company and ends up costing about 30 dollars a bottle. I Take 2 capsules a day but some days more. In about 3 weeks after starting I noticed the difference. Not nearly as stiff and can actually walk again. Had gotton where i could not walk and I need to as I am a diabetic also. https://smarter-reviews.com/lp/sr-t...MIgOn46vbY2wIVEsZkCh2n6wmzEAAYASAAEgLJ2vD_BwE PS i make myself plant and harvest a garden. Gotta do something for exercise. Travel quite abit in the motorhome. House is deep in the country. Trade off sat and off hot spot IPad when racing down the road. I don’t need all the 6 monitors BS like some do. All i watch and trade is the ES, NQ, YM. NOTHING ELSE. all i do is scalp 1 to 4 points a trade. Occasionally get more. Get more trades from these three than i wish to trade in a day. 8 to 20 opportunities alone in the ES daily. More if I looked harder.
Who needs 6 monitors. I've got redundant Iphones, one with sprint and one with verizon. I Velcro them to the dash of my taxi cab...never miss a trade.