Here are the most interesting tidbits of his confession, only a part of which was aired. It offers a glimpse into the mind of one of the most successful Americans who have ever lived. Do not read any further if you are offended by strong language. OPRAH WINFREY: Lance, thanks for speaking with me today. LANCE ARMSTRONG: No Oprah, thank you. OPRAH: Lance, I believe thereâs something you would like to tell everyone watching today. LANCE: Yeah, there sure is. OPRAH: And whatâs that? LANCE: I was a doper. I took performance enhancing drugs for the greater part of my cycling career. I regularly took EPO, and intermittently used anabolic steroids and testosterone. I used EPO to win each and every one of my Tour De France victories. OPRAH: How do you feel about that now? Are you sorry? LANCE: Oprah, I grew up in Plano, Texas, an only child with a single mum who struggled to look after me. Apart from my athletic abilities, I had no formal qualifications and few life skills. The one thing I was good at was winning triathlons, and I really kicked ass in the cycling leg. It was the one thing I loved most and it was the one thing I could do better than anyone else my age. If I sat here and said I was sorry for doping, that would make me the biggest fucking hypocrite on the planet. Because the reality is, without doping, Iâd still be a nobody in Plano, Texas. Instead, I was able to win the worldâs most gruelling athletic event seven years in a row, something that no-one else on this planet has ever done. I was able to experience a standard of living that I could otherwise only have ever dreamed about. I was able to meet amazing people all over the world. I owned beautiful houses on two different continents and drove exotic sports cars. That might sound kinda materialistic, but believe me, it sure beats living in some 2-bedroom shitshack and having to ride your bike to dates. And speaking of dates, I went out with the kind of women that, without my sporting successes, I never would have even had the opportunity to meet, let alone date and marry. Basically, I lived a dream. I did things and went places and met people that your average person could never hope to. If I die tomorrow, Iâll die knowing Iâve lived an amazingly full life. Most importantly, I was able to make my Mom proud. She sacrificed so much for me, and I felt like I had finally done something to repay her. Her efforts werenât in vain. I had become a somebody, I was a success. And I was able to buy her a nice place, buy her nice things, fly her overseas so she could see Europe and watch me race. Without doping, none of this â none of it â would ever have happened. OPRAH: But many people would object that your success was built on lies, that it was all a massive fraud. You cheated. LANCE: Hereâs the deal Oprah: At the pro level, everyone cheated. Everyone took performance-enhancing drugs. Well, maybe not everyoneâ¦those guys you saw rolling in behind the peleton, looking utterly exhausted? They might have been clean. The guys that lasted a year or two on the Pro Tour, then headed back home? They might have been clean. But if you wanted to actually win something, especially something major like the Giro or Tour De France, then you had to dope. End of story. All your competitors were doing it. You simply didnât have a choice. It was either dope, or donât win. I wanted to be a champion more than anything, and I realized very early on that without drugs, that would never happen. This was made pretty clear to me early on. OPRAH: Who made this clear to you? Coaches? Other riders? LANCE: Coaches, other riders, team staffâ¦letâs just say that as soon as youâre in the pro ranks, it doesnât take long to figure out what success as a pro entails. OPRAH: Did you ever suffer any side effects as a result of your drug use? LANCE: Nope. OPRAH: Do you think your cancer may have been caused, at least in part, by your drug use? LANCE: Oprah, neither EPO nor anabolic steroids cause testicular cancer. Iâll never know for sure, but Iâd say smashing my balls against my goddamn bike seat for six hours a day, seven days a week is what caused my testicular cancer. Cyclists in general have had a long history of problems down south. Thank heavens for the anatomic saddles they have nowadays. The only thing that makes me wonder is the HGH [human growth hormone] I took in my earlier years. Theoretically, that could promote cancer if you have the seeds of a tumour already forming, but I guess weâll never know if that in fact played a part. At any rate, I stopped using it. I never used it during or after my comeback. Apart from maybe helping connective tissue injuries, itâs a crap performance enhancer anyway. OPRAH: You donât sound at all sorry for using drugs. LANCE: Iâm not. I didnât hurt anyone by using EPO. I didnât âcheatâ per se, because I was simply doing what everyone else was doing. Cheating supposedly means youâre doing something to give you an unfair advantage. But how is taking EPO an unfair advantage when everyone else is also using EPO? If having an advantage that others donât is cheating, then my entire training regimen was cheating, because I consulted physiologists, doctors and coaches that most of the other riders didnât have access to. I used to work in close consultation with Trek to improve the design and aerodynamics of my bike. Few other riders would have had such a close relationship with their bike supplier, so I guess that was cheating too? The truth is that if I knew I wouldnât get caught, Iâd do it all over again. Because, again, the life that my professional success bought me was a much better alternative to the one I faced as a non-pro. Do you really expect me to sit here and say sorry for taking the performance-enhancing drugs that allowed me to become financially secure and date rock stars and beauty queens? Without my success as a competitive cyclist, there would be no Livestrong Foundation. All the support weâve given to cancer victims over the yearsâ¦itâs all well and good to claim Iâve disgraced Livestrong, but the reality is, no EPO, no success, no Livestrong. Folks like David Walsh accuse me of âconningâ cancer victims, but whereâs the con? I had cancer, and I survived it. Trust me, that shit was real. Has Walsh ever beaten cancer? Whatâs he ever done to help cancer sufferers? OPRAH: But couldnât you still have won without drugs? LANCE [Looking at Oprah like sheâs just landed from another planet]: Sure I could have won without drugs â if everyone else was also racing without drugs. But they werenât. Everyone was juiced. You simply didnât win a three-week epic stage race like the Tour De France on nothing but chicken breast, pasta and Enduro drinks. Thatâs something people need to realize and accept, before they sit in pious judgement. Itâs all well and good for jealous, scandal-seeking journalists and armchair spectator-types to sit and judge, but Iâd like to see these people get off their cellulite-laden asses and win a single stage, let alone finish an entire Tour. They can take as many drugs as they want, but Iâm guessing they still wouldnât get very far. OPRAH: So you have absolutely no regrets about your doping? LANCE: Oprah, letâs cut the bullshit. The only reason Iâm here is because I have to be. I want to clear the air. I want to tell my side of the story. Society, in all its wisdom, has evidently decided that doping is an evil on par with murder and child abuse. As one especially brilliant and lucid writer has pointed out, my doping saga has attracted more media airtime and more global scorn than that ever experienced by any paedophile. Which is pretty fucked. People really need to get some perspective. There is some pretty evil shit going on in the world right now, and people are getting their knickers in a knot because I took a red blood cell-boosting agent to win bike races? Fucking trolls. And yeah, I lied about it, but I didnât have much choice, did I? I mean, what was I supposed to say? âHey everyone, just letting you know that I take performance-enhancing drugs, but please donât tell WADA or the USADA, OK?â Câmon, get real⦠Barack Obama quietly signs the NDAA into effect, an unprecedented act which pretty much shits on the Constitution and legitimizes the indefinite detention of American citizens on a loosely defined definition of terrorism. Yet people sing and dance when he gets re-elected and treat the guy like heâs some kind of hero! Heâs failed to live up to every single promise heâs ever made, yet Hollywood celebrities trip over themselves to endorse him! Even Bruce Springsteenâ¦what a disgrace! I threw my Born on the Fourth of July CD in the garbage compactor when I saw that shit. Meanwhile, Iâm losing sponsors like thereâs no tomorrow and being made to look like Dr. Evil because I took a drug that increases your red blood cell count and hence allows you to ride your bicycle faster and longer. What a fucking crock!
Continued: OPRAH: Lance, I endorsed Barack Obama. LANCE: And how do you feel now, having convinced millions of people to vote for some slick talking shyster who is actively working to slowly strip away our nationâs most basic freedoms? This Democrat versus Republican bullshit drives me crazyâ¦when are people going to realize theyâre all a pack of self-serving assholes? OPRAH: Lance, I donât think this is a very wise PR strategy, this stuff youâre saying. What you need to do is drop the politics, bow your head more, pretend to be really sorry, shed a tear or two, and act like youâre begging the publicâs forgiveness. People really love that stuff, they just lap up the whole fallen-hero-seeking-forgiveness routine! LANCE: Screw that shit. Iâm here to tell the truth. And the truth is, I can sleep just fine at night when I think about my past doping. There is however, something that really bothers me, something for which I truly wish to apologize from the bottom of my heart. OPRAH [Looking surprised]: Ohâ¦and whatâs that? LANCE: I want to apologize for being such an asshole. Like it or not, taking drugs was a necessary part of being a successful professional cyclist, but acting like an arrogant, bullying, obnoxious jerk-off wasnât. I look back and absolutely cringe at some of the shit I did. OPRAH: Like what? Well, stuff like phoning journalists at their homes while they were having Sunday lunch with their families and then screaming at them for writing something I didnât agree with. And acting like an intimidating asshole towards other cyclists, instead of embracing the camaraderie. We were all their for the same reason â to achieve success and make a living out of the one thing we loved doing most. But I treated my fellow racers as mortal enemies, on and off the road. Iâd stare them down as I rode past, I did everything I could to humiliate and belittle them. I didnât need to do that, but there was a part of me that just couldnât resist the temptation to make others feel small. I wanted the entire peleton not just to respect me, but to fear me. OPRAH: Wow. Sounds like you were a real prick! LANCE: Yeah, I was, and thatâs what Iâm truly sorry about. The way I treated Filippo Simeoni, for example. OPRAH: Tell us about that. LANCE: Well, Filippo was an Italian cycling champion, and from all accounts a nice guy. In 2004 he testified in a case the Italians had going against Michele Ferrari, the infamous doctor accused of giving me and others EPO. Looking back, itâs clear Filippo was acting on his best intentions and really was hoping to make some kind of contribution to cycling by fessing up to doping and discussing the use of EPO. However, there was a kind of omerta, a code of silence in the peleton about doping, and if you broke that code everybody would hate you for it. âDonât spit in the soupâ, we used to say. OPRAH: The cycling equivalent of âWhat happens in Vegas stays in Vegasâ? LANCE: Exactly. Everyone knew everyone else was taking drugs, it was a fact of life we all accepted, and so long as it was kept quiet we all kept going our merry way. But Filippo was threatening everything, the last thing we needed was another drug scandal placing us all under suspicion. So when I get off the plane right before the Tour de France and some journalist sticks his microphone in my face, the first thing I blurt out is âFilippo Simeoni is a liar!â. Every chance I got, I slandered the poor guy. Then, during one of the stages, I pulled up alongside him on my bike, glared at him, and hissed, âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing, punk?â He looked back at me and said, in his broken English, âVa funculo dickahead, umma trying to rida bicicletta race here.â Well, that was it. Boy, was I pissed. No-one talks to the almighty Lance Armstrong like that, I said to myself. So I started chasing him. And we started getting into this angry game of cat and mouse, to the point where we started catching the riders who were leading that stage. Now, my TDF victory was already assured, and itâs an unwritten cycling custom that under those circumstances you let other riders have a stage win or two, so long as they pose no threat to you in the overall classification. But there I was, racing Filippo like some kind of angry nutter and we were closing in on the leading riders. It wasnât until some of the other riders said âLance, what are you doing? Let these guys have their dayâ, that I backed off. But that just made me more pissed. So I put the word out that Simeoni was Public Enemy Number One and the rest of the peleton, compliant and intimidated sods that they were, started giving him the cold shoulder and even verbally abusing him. OPRAH: Thatâs horrible! LANCE: Thatâs hardly the start of it. On the very last day of the Tour, as you ride into Paris, itâs another custom that whoever is leading at that point is not challenged. Thatâs why you see the winning team riding into Paris sipping on champagne flutes instead of going flat out. But Filippo had other plans. Heâd been under siege the whole Tour, unfairly copping crap left, right and center from me and the rest of the peleton for three weeks straight, and heâd well and truly had enough. So, out of nowhere, he makes a breakaway, and leaves us all in the dust. Everyone panics, you could hear the sound of champagne flutes breaking on the pavement, everyoneâs like, âWhat the hell is this guy doing?!â So we gave chase and we caught him. And as we all rode past, we spat on him. Half the peleton must have spat on him, he had saliva running all the way down his thighs. OPRAH: Oh my God, thatâs disgusting! Why were you such an asshole, Lance? LANCE: Well, I donât want to use this as an excuse, I meanâ¦I believe it explains a lot of my behaviour and the anger Iâve harboured over the years, but Iâm not trying to say it excuses my behaviour. OPRAH: And whatâs that? LANCE: My stepfather, the one who I inherited my surname from, was a complete and utter prick. He verbally and physically abused me on a daily basis, until he was finally out of our lives. You do that to a kid in his formative years, believe me, itâs going to permanently affect him. I grew up angry, rebellious. Thankfully, I released a lot of that rage on the bike, which was surely a better option than brawling in bars or joining a biker gang. But unfortunately, my inner anger also manifested itself in far less positive ways. When I started winning bike races, it gave me a sense of empowerment and control. Life around my stepfather had been unpredictable, there was constant tension and you never knew when heâd burst into violence. And now all of a sudden here was an arena where I could achieve control, where I could impose my will on others instead of having others impose their will on me. That sense of control was addictive. I became a control freak. OPRAH: Thatâs ironic, because people who abuse their spouses and children are often control freaks. You suffered at the hands of a control freak, and then became one yourself.
LANCE: Yeah, Iâve had a lot of time to sit and think about this. Itâs amazing how stuff that happened over thirty years ago can affect the way you behave today, without you even realizing it. People who beat their kids are cowards, pure and simple. If you need to physically and violently impose your will on a child in order to achieve some sense of control in your life, then you really are a total piece of shit, a truly pathetic individual. You think youâre master of your domain because you verbally berate or physically beat your family into submission? Fine. Go up to someone 2-3 times your height and 2-3 times your weight and slap them across the face. Letâs see how tough you are then. OPRAH: I can see youâre still angry. LANCE: Yeah, I am. Because of my stepfather, and the fear, resentment and anger that he created inside of me, I developed an attitude and a certain approach to dealing with others. Itâs an approach Iâm only starting to properly deal with now. But back then, when I started winning races, I started getting cocky. I would trash talk a lot, but that was really my way of masking my insecurities and it was also my early taste of success getting the better of me. While winning bike races gave me a sense of empowerment, the control freak in me saw to it that I got moody and testy when things didnât go my way, on or off the bike. If someone said something I didnât agree with, Iâd blow it out of proportion and give them the cold shoulder. If I lost a race, Iâd be pissed for days. When I got to Europe, I got even worse. The Europeans donât generally go for the whole trash talk shtick the way we Americans do. In fact, their behaviour overall is often a lot more mellow and refined. But there I was running at the mouth, staring people down, acting like a complete jack-ass. Not surprisingly, I wasnât real popular among the peleton during those early years in Europe. Iâve unnecessarily burned a lot of bridges during my career. There were people who were long and loyal friends, but I threw them out of my life because of the tiniest perceived slight or infraction. I used peopleâ¦when I figured they had served their useful purpose, I didnât want anything more to do with them. When people crossed me â for stuff that, when I look back was embarrassingly minor â I started acting real sour towards them real quick. Iâd intimidate them in all sorts of ways. If it was a skinny fellow cyclist, Iâd do it face to face. If it was someone far less of a pushover, Iâd unleash my legal team on them. I had a very hostile, confrontational approach to life. I had a lust for control, and quickly became angry when I perceived I was losing control of a situation. Long story cut short â I was a real dick towards a lot of people. To those people, I truly apologize. Thatâs something I really am sorry for: Taking out my inner anger on people who didnât deserve it. OPRAH: Are you going to cry? LANCE: No. OPRAH: Aw câmon, just a few tears, please? Not even some watery eyes?! Itâll do wonders for the ratings! LANCE: Sorry Oprah, I donât go for all that teary confession bullshit. A real man only cries in public for one of three reasons: 1) A loved one has died; 2) He witnesses fellow humans dying or suffering terribly, or; 3) His new bike just got totaled. OPRAH: Well Lance, this wasnât quite what I was expecting, but itâs been interesting. Thanks for talking with me today! LANCE: No worries Oprah, thanks for letting me tell my side of the story. Hey, are we off-camera now? Coolâ¦Iâm going to grab a beer. Can I get you something to drink? OPRAH: Thatâd be great! Have you got any of that Kangaroo Island Sting you keep raving about? LANCE: Damn straight! I bought a whole case back from Adelaide the last time I raced in the Tour Down Under! By the way, I gotta tell you about this Mike Rann tosser, he was the Premier of South Australia at the time and he followed me around everywhere like a goddamn puppy dogâ¦man, it was creepy! If it wasnât for the fact his government was paying me millions just to show up, sign a few autographs, and appear in the race, I wouldâve â¦hey, weâre definitely off-air now, right? [TRANSCRIPT ENDS HERE] Source: http://anthonycolpo.com/leaked-exclusive-read-oprahs-full-interview-with-lance-armstrong/