Then look for a job in parallel and take a break with this job if possible before coming back to trading.
You need to let us know what has changed. Being in a rut sucks and so I had to change to get out of this destructive rut. So tell us what has changed as you see it in depth. Looks like theres lots of previous posts that care enough to post. Spit it out man and you'll probably feel a hell of a lot better. Take it one step further. Stay healthy gw
I think it is better that he talks with a people in real life than with us on this forum . At least on these moment people rethink about what is really important in their life.