Hello everyone, I have been reading this board for quite some time, but this is my first post. I am a struggling trader, and I hope that by posting here I can pick up some advice and encouragement to keep going. I also hope that by airing this publicly I might be able to narrow my focus and solve it. It is a firm goal of mine to make a living trading. I am very committed to it. I have been trading on and off for the past 14 years, between job contracts. Total calendar time spent on trading related activities is probably 1.5 years. I "know" enough now to be successful. In fact I "know" enough about trading to write a very credible response to this post, should I choose to masquerade as an expert. Over the last calendar year, I've kept detailed notes on my trading and have addressed several important issues. However there is one thing that I just can't seem to overcome: Revenge trading. I hate losing. This is a tough one for me. My first loss of the day is pretty easy, I take it mostly in stride. However, it upsets me somewhat and I start to rush a bit. The second loss is usually due to obvious stupidity on my part, and that makes me really mad at myself. Then I start looking for anything that looks remotely like a setup or just take impulsive scalps. I only quit when I reach my "point of unbearable pain" which is sometimes more than 10% of my account. After than I am defeated and depressed and ready to give up. It sounds easy to say "just don't do that". But I can't describe how powerful the impulse is to "fight back". My hands shake and my heart rate goes up. I can't think clearly. I know in that moment that I MUST stop trading. Only rarely can I actually walk away when that happens. I am a very emotional, impulsive person by nature. Not to give the wrong idea, I am also responsible, stable and intelligent. But trusting my gut, making snap decisions with limited data and taking risks are strengths that have set me apart from the crowd and have lead to success in other areas of my life. I feel like I should be able to overcome those traits to trade. I don't overtrade for the excitement, as gambler would. I don't enjoy overtrading at all. It's just REALLY hard to stop myself when I am facing a loss for the day. Oddly, this has only been a problem for the past year or two. Before that losses didn't bother me as much, I thought of them as tuition. But I think it's starting to sink in that I might not actually be able to do this. I would really appreciate serious suggestions by people who have have overcome tough, personality based trading obstacles like this. As I said, I am very committed to making this work, but I'm at the point where I need some outside perspective. I'd also really like to hear from people who have fought their own demons and won.