The people who run and volunteer in these centers have all done many vipassana retreats, and understand ALL type of problems - including the most "unbelievable one". Their motto is compassion, mercifulness, loving-kindness.
The key when doing the retreat is to follow all the instructions and get through the 10 days. What this retreat do is bring to the surface every burried emotions in the subconscious. If one manages to get through the 10 days, all the stuff gets out, and very often the solution to many issues just show up.
Now I think of it much more, I would have put my finances in order and just gone through these retreats. Someone, somewhere there has the solution.
I am going over different viewpoints of it. All is taken care of ( food, bedding, etc...) so as one can concentrate on oneself. <iframe width="640" height="360" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/sEdOE_0hd24?feature=player_detailpage" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
And it is actually free. Yep some people - including my coach - have a wider view of issues, a complete understanding of issues, information we have no ideas about, and go their way to bring real solutions. Also, sometimes, when one believes they made a mistake, sometimes, these mistakes were a blessing in disguise. May be someone needed to learn that self-respecting human beings would rather run away, than lose their freedom to choose how to live their own lives. May be someone needed to learn that when there is cheating, it means one made a poor choice of partner and it is best to thank both cheaters for the "revelation", move on and really start working on oneself so as to avoid the same mistake. May be someone needed to learn that the world is changing: more compassion, more mercifulness, more loving-kindness.
I now clearly understand the benefits of these retreats. It is not about becoming a Buddhist oneself, but about learning and finding solutions, and going back with better "tools".
The effects for the trading are that : - I am still not feeling the usual excitement rush as before - I am still not having thoughts of increasing position sizing in expectation of greater gains - I am just thinking of what market behaviour I will be trading, at what moment I will move my stop, recording my maximum DD distribution for the coming trading campain.
I can really also say that "trading taught me more than I was bargaining for". I also realize how little I know on subjects that actually matter - and form one core of success : psychology and spirituality. The funniest thing is now I am not even bothered about the money. LOL. Not even stressed about what minimum return/profits I want. It just look like a forest, and I take my boxes to go and fill it. big, small : it doesn't matter, just collect, compounding is the key to reach the goal.
explanation about what one goes through - I'd say this person does not seem to have deep mental issues or done terrible things. <iframe width="640" height="360" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/SOhXOGx-kDg?feature=player_detailpage" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
I think I will leave a very excellent tip here. I don't know what scarred the crowd here, but suddenly many just left in panick, apparently shortening their stay without even asking for the non-staying ( non-occupancy) days refund. lol. Some were even packing their bags in the corridor so in a hurry they were to leave. I nearly thought this was a friday 13th prank! <iframe width="640" height="360" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/xYSa8gRvxCg?feature=player_detailpage" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> But then, I applied what I learned : - how I felt? like laughing to see the panicky people packing in a hurry. - what did I do? observe the situation calmy, and went to boil some water for my tea, so as to generate some body exercise. lol. Then decided to get out of the situation so as to assess and do something I like , aka go and check out again the castle. - what assessment did I make ? while going out to check again this castle, I realized the 2 national soldiers were not panicking, nor the chinese guy who has been here long time. So I concluded that the stimuli had no reason to panick me. How would I have reacted in the past? stimuli : "wow everybody is suddenly leaving panicking!" In reality , most people were leaving in a panick mode. emotion : panick thought : "Yup there must be danger in view." Conditionned behaviour : follow the pack. Pack in panic mode and leave.