I am really glad I had a very long conversation with this very good pal. But for me, I prefer to continue finding out more about this very nice city, and taking some good time for a rest as I am to get myself into the combine in the next few weeks.
Thinking of it, it is quiet astonishing that people just bought the lies, and went on after the pal, insulting him and treating him like dirt. I am amazed they never really stopped and simply just respected the pal's decision to stop a private relationship. But they were all there trying to force him back into a private relationship he did not want of. Now, I guess everybody is feeling really stupid. People can't even say "but why didn't he say anything?". There are things that are just private... As my favorite aunt says : " you do not know what really goes on privately between two people. So if one wants out, just respect the decision." I am starting to realize even more how wise she is.
It looks like after learning a lesson, a new one has to be learned! So now, learning to deal with my finances. Hopefully this one is not going to involve unsavoury individuals. In a way, I prefer this type of problem to dealing with people who had hidden life with the underworld. This has the potential to create enormous financial pressures. Hence, as recommended by the coach, the need to study gambling psychology. Yup! I hope he is not thinking of me there...
I really do not quiet get it why I need to look at gambling psychology. But if this study needs to be done. well why not. For some reasons, I am feeling uncomfortable just typing the words gambling psychology. lol. What am I fearing
Let's get on with that. betting the farm... gambling addiction... gambling addicts... compulsive gamblers.. compulsive gambling.. psychological addiction... * compulsive gamblers can't quite while they are winning because they actually desire to lose their money :eek: . Behind it is the desire for punishments for tensions and conflicts in their lives :eek: They want to lose all their money so they can reach a state of despair :eek: ==> Trading : drawdown values * compulsive gamblers can't quite when they lose as they are tempted to increase wagers to regain losses. ==> Trading : revenge trading. In both cases, when winning or losing, compulsive gamblers will do their best to come out losing. yup.
I think I now understand why the coach asked to study gambling psychology. I guess as he has never traded, he sees it as similar to gambling somewhere.
the inner negative and painful feelings , that are masked by the euphoria of winning for problem gamblers are to name a few: - feelings of emptiness - feelings of loss - feelings of refusal - feelings of worthlessness - feelings of passivity - feelings of deprival - feelings of helplessness - feelings of self-rejection - feelings of self-hatred If a problem gambler could not gamble, then other venues would be found to re-experience these negative and painful emotions.
At least I am gathering a list of psychological conditionning to check and if present to remove from my psychology/spirituality.
Been taking it really easy. Funny thing is I am strangely absolutely not worried about the finances. In the worst case regarding the tax scenario, get a gig at some firm in 2014, share profits and sort the whole lot. Or eventually just use these heavy fines to write off next few year taxes. I think the reason I am not worried is the main source of this mess is sorted. This is why I am not worried. Just really enjoying the sense of freedom of choice in a certain way.