Also, my host here is really making me want to stay far longer. Apparently she was bored to death... till I arrived So will be getting some new machines here ( more like different internet providers per machine ), to make myself more comfortable trading wise, and prolongate my stay. Seeing this creative person is an eye opener : so many good ideas and what is just missing is some little help, and here I am. . My host I guess never guessed what I am bringing : yesterday, her excitement reached new highs, when I unveiled the superbe business plan regarding poker players. . I love the " why don't we just start tomorrow. Deauville is not very far. ".lol. I am more thinking about Macau or obviously Las Vegas first class this time. lol. And I have not even told her what I do - trading. She'd become crazy. LOL.
I guess one way of improving oneself is seeing someone with similar weaknesses and helping the person deal with their weaknesses. She has the habit of starting things, doing them and then giving up as her attention get drawn to more interesting things. This reminded me how important it is to have one clear goal and passion. Otherwise, one does one thing, then when something else comes, the person just deviates , etc... and nothing get really finished. So, I am really glad to have one passion - trading
So yeah, the trading is getting better as I am now following the coach advice of : - seeking what brings me pleasure and happiness without this creating problems for someone else. In which case, fundamentally it is not good, so I should just avoid. - starting to find good people to surround myself with. This one is the best, and I am now getting very good at filtering people out. And arrogance does help to filter parasites out. - making myself useful to the deserving ones. I love this one. May be trading is really about becoming a better oneself. How comes now I religiously respect var risk? How comes I prepare like hell for every trading day? How comes I really do not care about the money ? How comes I now just know my trading goal will be reached ? How comes I do not worry/stress or whatever about a trading day? How comes I am starting to understand the human mind better?
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Back now into regular updating. Looking forward to my surprise party tomorrow . They don't know that I know and I like that they are putting so much efforts. These are really great and good people. I think next week, I'll go for a full week of hyper scalping for a change. Need to chose a good day or night for this one. So will be spending today preparing for next week scalping.
Looks like I have to work on my psychology : how I feel about good profits and change that so as to be comfortable psychologically/spiritually with that. I think in a certain way, small profits look fine, but when I go to massive one, I feel a bit of discomfort because the profits does not correspond to the amount of work put in. I need to work on the disconnect between trading profits that can be disproportinate compared to "efforts". One psy aspect I need to work on.
I am nos going to investigate money beliefs ( psychology/spirituality) and how these can impact trading. - money only comes from hard work. Now, to be honest, trading - even prep prep prep - is in all honesty not hard work. The hard part is fighting with oneself to keep doing some dunky readings and study. Now, how does one feel when good profits come in ? - life is a struggle. similar as above. Now if good profits come in, and one starts to think about how things get now more simple, how this belief of life is a struggle going to impact the trading? -people won't love me as much if I have money or they'll love me because I have money. I guess some people might have had the bad experience of attracting all type of parasites looking to help themselves or family whose reactions are desagreable because money issues are in the background. - having a lot of money will be a burden Already looking into these beliefs might help to feel comfortable with massive profits.
I am going to start with looking at the "mindset of struggle" and how that impact trading. Quiet amazing how little I know about how the mind works.
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