I am also realising that the "yo-yo" in trading was necessary to keep me motivated to accumulate screen-time, and improve my market reading skills. So all is not lost.
Now, as the trading becomes less time consuming - really about doing everything to keep the psychology and spirituality pure and sane - I have more time to "contribute" to this project of turning 100 000 people into millionnaires. I am also very glad that I am authorised to talk freely about it. I find it interesting to understand why people who decide ( actually many people absolutely do not care about making serious money) they want to be millionnaires do not get there, vs those who do. LUCK plays a big part strangely. Something I 'd have never really put as one factor. LUCK actually can be "worked on". This really allows me to understand the "spirituality" part. Making sure that the "candidates" are in a period of 'good luck' and are very unattractive to 'bad luck' is important so as not to waste the opportunity.
So now studying "good luck". Interesting what trading psychology leads to: from "yo-yo" because of fear of boredom, to "boring" consistency because of compound interest and now all about "good luck".
Family wise : my coming goal is to get my mum - at least , and if possible also one niece ( into finance degree) to do the 10-days www.dhamma.org This is the least I can do for them.
Trading : so the month finishes in the red. I accepted that 2 weeks ago, and I did not feel like chassing losses. So starting a new trading month. Took the last 2 weeks to do some tests on position sizing. This is really my problem. For some strange reasons, whenever I see a good equity returns, I feel compelled - as if stronger than me- to increase size and take more risks. This is pure subconsciously driven behavior that starts to kick in!!! So I am getting some help ( have enlisted a family member for live trading, as well as a small team of 3 people to make the trading prep easier for me). I'll get the family member to help with the risk while trading : this is where I have showed great weakness. Nothing fancy : just get the risk, and calculate the position sizing for me, and write down my emotions. The key is to understand what happens between seeing excellent returns or performance ( I have now recognized that I am blood damn good at trading), and then minimizing the aspects of risk. The risky behavior manifests itself by : - complaisance in trade preparation ( we aim to eliminate that with the 3 helpers) - position size increase ( we aim to control that with the family member presence during live trading). Also, on sunday afternoon and monday morning : some following went on ( gilles and kevin look-alike, plus 2 other people). I think they are starting to understand that they are wasting their time and resources. I also realise that they might have understood that what failed them had been ET forum : complete anonymity was important to them, but unfortunately all their actions are well recorded on time. What are they going to do when the seminars start ? What are they going to do when the books come out ? In a way they have been stupid : they would have just let things go their way quietly, things would not have built up into books and seminars. Now, apparently my favorite intellectual is into creating a new political party : I guess I'll join fully. I have been warned to expect slandering, smear campain and diffamation : I explained I have been amply trained over the last 4.5 years. So the experience/training is not lost . Let's say I have learned to "read people very well". I wondering if politics runs in the blood : learning that one family member is actually preparing to run for some important elections within 2 years. All my blessings to a good success, as I am looking forward to leverage any positive results for my own retaliation ( specifically on the assholes "people can not name" who love using others to put blame on others, as well as love hiding who/what they are ) . THANKS for the motivation.
someone pointed out with worries to the word retaliation People make choices : * some were willing to apologise and make amends ( hats off to the "exotic" ladies who were first on to apologize ), so no need to retaliate there. Even more, if I can do something for them down the line, I will, as I understand how they've been used without them being informed at all. * some believe that by not apologising, nor making amends, what they've done will just go away. I am all for karma, with human input. I have been explained that the best way to make good use of this experience, and the easiest way down the line to retaliate fully is to get into politics : I think since age 14, I was "encouraged" into that, but always refused. But man, the motivation is too strong now : "the easiest way down the line to retaliate fully is to get into politics" that is what worked for me. So yes, politics in view of retaliation. That's why I will work my ass off in this area, otherwise I'd not bother at all. Trading : because I loved trading. Now, it is really routine - I am realizing that my position sizing increased and slacking off preparation are a way to add "excitement"/"adrenaline rush". So I"ll find the excitement/"adrenaline rush" in the political arena.
So the new trading month has now started. Let's now test how well all this psychology works. fixed pip size. So I'll post here the daily p&l in pips. Now checking again the stops values as I prefer these to be fixed value.
It looks like the real asshole is still working hard to prevent at all costs any face2face meeting : the person must really be awake at night working out how to prevent the full truth coming out. ==> Please keep working hard: sooner or later everything will come out. That is a certainty. The asshole must have built a huge pack of lies to keep everybody in line : only problem obviously is "who? when? where? what? why?" face2face and all the castle of cards will be falling down. I am really looking forward to understand what were all the lies and how each person just swallowed it. Again : THANK YOU for the clean up. Even Cyndie was being used !!! It is amazing to what lengths some people are ready to go. I can not thank you enough for what you are doing. Again MANY THANKS.
I guess the cleaning up has to continue. I do not know why "Daddy and the females" can't get their own psys and come to pick my brain for free. I will, when I can get the woman's numbers put her details here. Here we go : from the "hired mouth". Let's all learn about how Karma works. - one "female" apparently has not been raised to be irrespectful, to sleep with different guys on the first night, etc... I did not dare to ask her how many guys she slept with. What I find interesting is she must feel it is a good example of a well raised "female" to use "hired mouth" on someone who has been harassed for 4.5 years, and who had to leave a country resident in because of the harassment. lol!!! On the next "hired mouth" please explain to me how using "hired mouth" is what parents dream from their daughters. Please "female" do thank Daddy for providing you "customers". At the end of the day, without "Daddy" you might be starving today. - one "female" was very proud that her guy had bought her a pair of shoes. But her problem was that he uses drugs and thus help himself to her money, lies for money, manipulate for money, etc. As she is 100% convinced he loves her, I suggested that she makes sure to put in everymorning a pile for cash daily for his own use. Apparently the guy is sooo drop dead gorgeous. Please "female" do thank Daddy for providing you "customers". At the end of the day, without "Daddy" you might not have been banged by a gorgeous lad. - one "female" apparently can't take it anymore to be beatten by the guy. She apparently has kid. Well what can I say ? You told him you loved him, right? so where is the problem when he too desires you? . I'll never understand "females". I do understand decent women, but "females" is a world I did not know of. I advised her to always say - as apparently he "disgusts her" - that she is not ready for sex just now. Seriously, with a kid already there, the poor guy apparently works when he can, believed her and it is normal he wants some deep intimacy with the love of his life, no? Please "female" do thank Daddy for providing you "customers". At the end of the day, without "Daddy" you might not have been believed when you said you loved him. Now, obviously walking the talk is another matter. My advice : sex 3 times a day "female". Please Daddy make sure you enforce the love regim!!! lol - one "female" feels raped every time she has sex with the "customer" Daddy in his infinite wisdom found for her!!! What ingratitude!!! Wouldn't you be starving today without "Daddy customers". Apparently she has been threatened with death, and even acid attack should she want to leave. What could I say to that ? Talk to Daddy maybe ? Drink before he comes back from work so as to be super hot ? Please "female" do thank Daddy for providing you "customers". At the end of the day, who is wiser than "Daddy"? certainly not priests and well qualified psys who advise to never ever enter into this type of "Daddy and females arrangements". - one "female" who was laughing loudly about a 5 years old rape situation, apparently now has memories that from age 12 she started having sex with her dad and brother. Apparently, her guy does not know about this, but she is fine using a "hired mouth" , forgetting that my job is to extract as much info as possible for the clean up. I really did not know what to say to be honest. I suppose we all need to thank "Daddy" for his infinite wisdom. Please refer her to a really good psy : 5 sessions a week minimuml, instead of sending her to "customers". Let's just put a reminder here : "Daddy and the females" : feel free to come and pick my brain again with "hired mouth". I'll make my best to extract as much info as possible. Anyway, behind a good and happy man is a good woman. So I am actually feeling sorry for the men whose "females" or ex do not feel anything than hiring "hired mouth" to spit on the "men they love". Hopefully, these guys will take on them to do a lot of psy work, so as to avoid these high "quality" females. I really have to thank "Daddy and females" for the education regarding relatiponships.
To help identify which "females" are still into "hired mouth". - I advised one to make sure she wakes up very early and make a full and complete breakfast. Then for her to pray in front of him for him to follow her example. In the evening to cook his favorite meal, and to put videos of action AND comedy, as she explained he only liked action movies and the violence issue. I tried to explain to her that if she can get him to stay in front of the TV and just have fun, it is unlikely he will want to beat her. - one was complaining that her guy took her credit card and helped himself into her accounts to fund his "smoking habits". That he had "bad friends" who were influencing him. I did not have much advice there that may be if another woman came with more money, he will move on. And that this was something she had to be prepared for. - one was complaining that her guy wouldnot stop talking about his mum. Apparently the mum died when he was a kid. Apparently he belived that his family kind of was responsible for her death or at least did not support her when she was ill. When asked what was her point of view, she was amused and laughed at this because she thinks he is just "lunatic" and idealised his mum, but his family is in no way responsible et he is just looking for someone to blame. My advice was : to never ever tell him he is wrong as far as the family dynamics concerning his dead mum, but to listen and let him talk as much as possible even if she interrupted that it was extremely boring. Obviously, that he did not go on well with his own family was a given, and I advised her to get as much as possible her own family to visit. To which she explained, he would most of the time just escuse himself after 30 minutes and just go out. The other "hired mouth" : had a pink scarf, and seemed to talk about one "female" who likes putting all her hair on one side. This one stayed silent as she got to understand that retaliations will certainly take place. Within few minutes, the decent "women" hired as "talking mouth" made the good decision to go home.