Because of the difficulties you are going through, Because of the way you are holding on, Please know that I admire you <iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/ZMTuVWsKqyE" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
Keep fighting every minute, every hour, every day. Just remember : all of this is just a HUGE test and you will manage.
I am very glad to be going through my "psychology of money" exercises. I am actually very pleased that I am now stopping looking for problems. <iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/4rm30Yb9Fdg" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
"Who do you have to become to reach this goal?" So that's 48hrs and 200 pages of exercises just to eliminate negative associations regarding trading profits. Now, we'll find out if this works during the coming trading sessions. Even so, I am also changing things regarding my trading. Maximum 1.5 hours / trading session. It is not a question of laziness. And also time really to look for my first 2 trading colleagues, specially as this Asian country is very low cost.
Going over my financials : I can really see the negative impacts of the stalkers. Moving flats after violence and theft does indeed cost extra money Travelling to avoid any chances of these assholes creating setups indeed cost extra money Losses when these assholes disturbed my peace and tranquility while trading indeed cost extra money. I am glad that the coach has kept it clear in my head that "they will get the same, so do not bother going the retaliation route".
But inspite of all of this, I am on the way up, following the mega losses these assholes helped generate by attempting to enter in my office illegally while I was trading. Now people wonder why I call some people assholes. lol.
I realise that what I have gained is a LOT of goodwill ( without counting the apologies "Oh but all was false. I am sorry I acted on that, blah blah blah). A better understanding of people - I simply do not "befriend" seriously anybody who has not done their www.dhamma.org. For some reasons, this meditation turn people into "angels". The book : I have now read a quarter of it. So I am back on it. Trading goal : recover the small losses first. Not forcing, taking it easy.
Luckily, as everybody is now seriously doing their own psychological work, even the assholes by seeing the good example are now trying to improve themselves, grabbing "via theft" whatever coaching technique they can via email and skype hacking. They would just ask, I would just give it to them - just for the sake of them moving on. Just a shame the assholes need a lot of examples before doing their www.dhamma.org But one coach was right : these people need psychological help to deal with their core issues that have actually nothing to do with you. So now, we just have to be patient that one by one they take their courage and start working on their own psychology very seriously. Some palS are also suffering of the nefarious actions of these assholes : please just keep pushing on, realise that this is just a test. And we've all gone through a lot, so we've all develop stamina and mental strength. Let me watch again my daily reminder : <iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/Nsd64zyTgAs" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> Assholes: that also works for you. Don't cry when you get the same : just come and read this thread.
Talking about Karma, well I don't know what to think. And I really thank the coaches to have warned me many times about not going the "retaliation" route. But when people talk about Karma, I now realise what it means Apparently a group of "females" were laughing at the information of a child sex abuse. Apparently 4 years later, one "female" got savagely raped. Two other "females" have now each a daughter. As I am now starting to learn, is Karma works in strange ways, I hope for the "females" that they are really doing all her psy work, as whatever happens to the "sexuality" of each of of their daughter down the line, they'll know who to point the finger to : themselves. <iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/Nsd64zyTgAs" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
And the dad of these daughters, might hopefully down the line, know and understand where does the "fate" of their daughters "sexuality" comes from. It would be an interesting case that, as the stats show, the daughters and granddaughters of the "females" all turn hookers. Hopefully, they'll know who to point the finger for their daughters's issues. I could not help wondering about these teenage girls who were materially well off, but went into "teenage hooking to old men" for the "fun". Someone woman was saying that all of this must come from their mum hidden past actions. But at the time I could not understand. Now it makes sense. Karma always comes home to roost.