Hopefully, I will be doing a LOT of meditation over the next 3 weeks. I hate having negative feelings. But at least now, I am fully aware of them early on. Even when losing 4k, there were signs and I should have been more attuned to these and just take the trading week off.
One Pal who is facing the realities of how his parents met, the circumstances of his conception, etc... Very well done. This is really the first HUGE step : as it means you are ready to accept yourself as you are. Now for your future, there are quiet a few psychology/spiritual steps, no need to be impatient. However, just to motivate you : <iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/bY8j0dVSwH8" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> <iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/7VUszxxzego" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
The first stage of the psychology/spirituality coaching is always the hardest, as you have to be very honest, look to all the "uglies" in your family/ancestry/parents. Well, the stuff you'd always preferred avoiding, but that actually you are programmed to reproduce - except if you do your work on it. Also, obviously, www.dhamma.org is a must. If you are going the "Success path" starting from the bottom, you might as well take all the most efficient methods. All the coach steps are necessary : jumping into law of attraction without doing prior work is foolish as seeds of defeat will build without doing all the steps. But again : VERY well done to have had the courage to tackle the family/ancestry "issues" that are controlling your psychology.
4 years of heavy abuse and harassment is excessive. Some people should be doing jail time for that. u need time to digest this experience. Take it easy.
<iframe width="640" height="390" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/nptMn4YMCCM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> Apparently I have met a Pal : Sorry , No I did not MEET you face to face. Whenever I meet a Pal : - I open my trading account, and put in trades to generate 5% an hour. Face2Face - I ask the pal to try it as well so that he sees it is not easy. Face2Face - I bring the Pal to the airport for PASSPORT control. This together. Face2Face Whoever you met with WAS NOT ME. I have noticed : - in a cafe, one muslim guy said in laughing he had seen me, 10 days ago in a place in this town. This can't be as I was in Singapore - Obviously the "pimp and female" knew well about your plans : Yesterday morning, one guy was all bent on giving me a drink, when only staff were allowed in this place to deal with drinks. In spite of refusing, he left a glass of water near my casino table. I had a conversation with a Palestinian youngster ( Malaysia takes on a LOT of refugees from there) and I said - to avoid misinterpretations and doctoring - : 1) Palestinians were being used to commit crimes. Don't fall into that 2) Quatari, Saudis, Kuweiti are a disgrace : Swedish don't go and waste money on cars, but invest it for the well being of Scandinavia. Q-S-K are brainwashed not to really help your people. 3) Arabs and Palestinians alienate people in the West. People understand they are weak, but they alienate people. - When I went into the park, an indi-paki lookalike of james bond with very gray hair, went his way to approach me, laughed at my face and before I could hear what he said, I asked him to leave. Sorry I am not into these type of people who force their dirty presence when I am trying to relax.
Let me REPEAT : any meeting where it is ME has to contain these elements: - Trading session where under your eyes , face2face, same room, chaires next to each other, watching the same screen, 5% are generated within 1 hour - Passport control at airport. We even went our ways to buy a plane ticket with the pal, so as to cross the airport. I use my alpari small account. Details that count. Also, at the time, "Alex" apparently met "ME" in Ukraine, while I was in Ukriane. That was NOT ME, as well. No trading took place, no 5% return within 1 hour. But apparently he got unceremoniously dumped, though the look-alike suddenly had very dirty smelly hair with bald patches, and other disgusting features. I have explained to you that the pimp and his females do not want a face2face meeting with no interferences, intermediaries and setups. Look-alikes DO get used. It is best that the FULL and COMPLETE truth comes out. <iframe width="640" height="360" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/Nsd64zyTgAs?feature=player_detailpage" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> The sooner the better : "pimp and females" take your courage to go and give all the TRUTH and the COMPLETE truth. If you do not have enough courage, try www.dhamma.org as miraculosly people are then willing to say all ( complete and total truth) the crass they have done. I am also getting fed up of indis-pakis showing at my face their disgusting presence around me.
Let's practice my language skills: " 7 اÙصÙر. Ø£Ù ÙاØد ÙÙ ÙÙØ Ø£Ù ÙاØد Ùشخص Ø¢Ø®Ø±Ø Ø§ÙÙاس Ø®Ø¯Ø§Ø¹Ø Ùذب ÙاÙتخرÙب. إذا ÙÙت ترÙد اÙتØدث: ÙجÙا ÙÙج٠ÙÙØ·. " What I know : - I absolutely do not wish to have anything to do with "pink" asshole ( last 5 days again showed their presence and polluted my psychological environment) - I absolutely do not wish to have anything to do with "pimp and his females" ( last 5 days again showed their presence e and polluted my psychological environment) - I absolutely do not wish to have anything to do with pakis indis and racist white trash and assimilated ( last 5 days again showed their presence e and polluted my psychological environment) . Not because I am a bad person, but because, them coming across my living space has been a disaster. Please do not bother "communicating" with me via intermediaries - face to face is preferable. Intermediaries are fine to arrange place, day and time. Otherwise, too much crap goes on. Please do not use staff to act as intermediaries - Annissa Carisa Martin the Malaysian staff here : please ask her to STOP. Thanks. I have not as yet complained to her boss, but she could be fired. Yes, I am getting this thread for her to read.
To the "female" who still does not get it. YOU sent a look-alike in my first place in Singapore to apologise. And then : - You trapped another staff at the 2nd place in Singapore - You also sent a woman to follow me to the internet place in KL - You trapped another staff here at the casino-internet place I have said to you : Apologies are not accepted. Clean your crap first and stop the crap behavior. Obviously as you are going your way to keep getting me followed. Don't believe that "Hollywood" allows to do any crap. What you are doing is legally illegal and is actually chargeable under "INTERNATIONAL human rights law violation". Just now there is enough to totally destroy you. Yes someone has been taking legal advice on my behalf. Not that I asked. PLEASE STOP. I have been clear : I do not want revenge. Don't make the mistake of wanting me to retaliate : you could really regret it very deeply. Obviously what "collaterals" want to do is nothing to do with me. Do not add to the list of people coming after you. Now, if your psy is really finding it difficult to get you to move on : contact Nick and explain to him why you are still doing this type of crap. As a pro he can find other pros to help you. As a first act : STOP the stalking , the hiring people to follow others. STOP all this crap. Start focussing on yourself.
Your illness and physical weakness can be totally healed: so do not despair. The first oil thing is just to stop any physical "degradation" and build a bit of strength. I am VERY sorry they are blocking your access to better health.
To be honest, I did not know that hookers had difficulties finding "customers" with enough money. So apparently my being stalked is all about "prospecting". lol! :eek: They are really going the hard way : "pimp and his females" if you are looking for people to fleece, stop working so hard. 1) Just walk in a area where people like showing -off. 2) Identify the people who seem to want to lose their money. The signals are always clear. 3) Just make it clear you will do the job for them. 4) Prove it 5) Just ask them for anybody else looking to lose their money. You do not need to bother other people. And to top it all, these people will thank you for the favor. The world has enough for everybody. Just go for those who want to lose their money. So stop bothering other people.