Obviously, this work is best done with the help a well qualified clinical psychiatrist, as there are many effects of trauma we do not know about, but they do know of it - as it is their work speciality. And this stage is just one step. And to get it done properly - I now understand why many rounds of "dejunking" are necessary. I am glad I just did the work without questionning.
It is really good to be able to say to the psy ; "I have been really going inside, and I can not remember any crap done to me or that I did to others.... I could only think of positive memories. But I will still keep looking for any crap"
Actually this video is much better than I thought, to give a rough view of how human mind work. <iframe width="640" height="360" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/3V2uOmw-Fpc?feature=player_detailpage" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
This obviously requires one to be very patient and very honest with the psy. But then one has to decide what they want ; easy success ( money, relationships, family, ...) or a coming life of struggles ( relationships,...).
In a strange way, I am not astonished to read about some people who were doing extremely well, but 10, 20, 30 or 40 years later are , let's say in "troubles". Including the billionnaire who lost 99.9% of his fortune. I am certain that if at the time he took a clinical psy early on, he would not have lost that much. lol.
I am seriously wondering what the retreat will uncover, as I really feel we have gone through everything. But then nothing left to chance . Imagine being in a huge position and then a negative thought comes in! gulp!
Anyway, I am super glad to have finished the "conscious" dejunking. I am really looking forward to the "unconscious" dejunking, and, the one I feel really excited about is the "success programming". A mega success machine! . Had I known, I would not have wasted my time on so many things before doing any work on the psychology/spirituality first! I guess I needed some really good luck to get picked by the coach, and to be humble enough to follow the advice to the letter ( nearly to the letter). Unprogram the mind, to reprogram it for a positive given purpose. I wish I had learned that this existed.
interestingly the success programming entails quiet a lot of volunteering as well. I did not know volunteering has some psychological/spiritual effects. I am glad I can here do some of my volunteering list. That will be some hours knocked out of it!
Just now, I am tapping my list of craps with their analysis. I was first considering throwing the whole lot, but I realize it might be worth saving the effort as it did take a LOT of hours to do this task. The effect on the trading is interesting. The questions flow very smoothly: - what is the story for this pair? - what is true for this pair? - what is false for this pair? - what if I am wrong? - what if I am completely wrong? I really like the two last questions as they automatically get me to really minimize risk.
It is quiet interesting how now I do not even need to force myself to be careful as far as risk management is concerned : it looks as if it is natural to think of risk risk risk. So I have the methods ingrained in my brain, I now have the risk management turned into a reflex. Now it is about accepting that now all is down to compounding.