Rebuilding The Dumpster Fire

Discussion in 'Journals' started by Max E., Jan 8, 2025.

  1. Max E.

    Max E.

    Chasing through the lows is generally a shitty move, it will bounce and punk you, wait for it tomorrow ne patient on the open, im hoping for a spike off the open then I will lean into it
     
    #271     Mar 6, 2025
  2. Max E.

    Max E.

    37 beats per minute right now about to take zopiclone so I can sleep
     
    #272     Mar 6, 2025
  3. Max E.

    Max E.

    Only time my mind shuts off is when I put myself into a coma on sleeping pills
     
    #273     Mar 6, 2025
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  4. I was a BIG time Valium user (all 3 types). Now, I use edibles on Sunday, to reset. 250mg pretty much equals 10mg Valium. So cut it up. Then do the evening ritual. No tolerance development.

    I can't believe I am writing this. BUT, this is the REAL deal. I truly want people to know the reality of being a professional trader...

    PS. It's sad that my doctors in NYC had me on all these combinations of drugs.

    MONEY...

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    #274     Mar 6, 2025
  5. Max E.

    Max E.


    Shoot man sorry to hear that, CBD has the opposite effect on me, I get even more stressed out, and my mind starts fighting with itself even harder.... I know lots of guys swear by it, but for me it just makes me even more OCD
     
    #275     Mar 6, 2025
  6. Max E.

    Max E.

    When i do weed as a sleep mechanism may as well be doing blow it has the same effect on my mind
     
    #276     Mar 6, 2025
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  7. For some reason, it helped. I am with you. I am so OCD, man, we could BOTH go on a major competition!!!

    PS. I quit Blow, after 2012. I had to fly to Iquitos, spent a week doing Ayahuasca. Never touched it again. Food for thought...
     
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    #277     Mar 6, 2025
  8. Max E.

    Max E.

    Ohh man I'm feel for you brother, if i smoke weed I start remembering something I did like 8 years ago and I start to cringe it's the worst feeling ever cause no one even remembers it except you.......
     
    #278     Mar 6, 2025
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  9. Welcome to the Club!
     
    #279     Mar 6, 2025
  10. Max E.

    Max E.

    How did the auyuasca work.? I have heard from people that that kind of stuff can reset your brain, I have done mushrooms before but it never gave me the epiphany that some people talk about with hallucinogens
     
    #280     Mar 6, 2025
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