LOL "You'd like to think that wouldn't you" (from one of my favorite movies) JB PS: at least the wheels of *my* car arrive with the rest of it.
Very eloquent and to the point, I admit. Your reasoning leads from the slight probability that you will fall victim to the assumption that everyone is a possible culprit and possibly out to get you. This is flawed reasoning. The fact that you may be harmed by someone is often accidental, not even on purpose. It just happens, like an ant getting trampled. Nobody is out to get you. The protection is 'not being scared'. Fear is at the basis of nearly all human disturbances and I think your problem is a good example. You sound like a very rational person: try to reason how great the chance is you will get trampled, and how great the chance that that happened on purpose. Is it reasonable to view everyone as a potential enemy just because maybe someday someone will accidentaly step on your toe? Then try to imagine what the worst is that could happen if and when you get trampled. You'll survive and be stronger. Face your fear, name it and dismiss it, it really works. As for boredom, I know what you mean. It could be sign of psych disease. If it is what I think there is not much remedy but there are ways to make life easier. Did you have it examined? Ursa..
I will get more into this. But for now, the short answer is: The only defense that cannot be turned against you is a perception of universal, all-inclusive innocence that simultaneously includes yourself and everyone you think of as "other". Nothing and no one can be left out of this perception in order for the defense to be "bullet proof". The metaphysics that I am explaining detail the reason you can view this way, and be completely backed up by reality. It's actually the truth. Now all one need do is satisfy the ego's habitual resistance to truth. To do this you apply reason...a form of logic that the ego cannot withstand, since it has no real defense against reasonableness. In other words, ONENESS trumps divisiveness all day long whenever reason is allowed to lead to truth...or whenever truth is not put on ignore. The ego is about "divide and conquer". A divided world "proves" that there are victims. It teaches you this constantly. But truth teaches consistently, to those who will stop listen. There are no "holes" in reason's arguments in favor of truth. Reason is "seamless". This is the ego's world. The entire universe of time and space is a defense against the truth. Ingenious, yes. Real, no. Jesus
GOD, this thread makes me feel so pious.. sooo guilty for give me father for i have sinned. my confession: The road is long With many a winding turn That leads us to who knows where Who knows when But I'm strong Strong enough to carry him He ain't heavy, he's my brother So on we go His welfare is of my concern No burden is he to bear We'll get there For I know He would not encumber me He ain't heavy, he's my brother If I'm laden at all I'm laden with sadness That everyone's heart Isn't filled with the gladness Of love for one another It's a long, long road From which there is no return While we're on the way to there Why not share And the load Doesn't weigh me down at all He ain't heavy, he's my brother He's my brother He ain't heavy, he's my brother...
If you think his commentary had any traction, then you are to be pitied. When a blind rooster keeps crowing at all hours of the night because it has no idea when dawn occurs, you shut the window or turn it into stew. I chose to shut the window. My worldview is unchanged and I am doubtfree. If you say anything of value or interesting (which seems doubtful), I will be happy to respond. This post of yours was little beyond 4th grade understanding.