Read Managing Expectations by Tony Saliba it’s an easy read and the best I have found. I too wanted to jump off a bridge. I no longer feel that way. Options are much more illiquid than stock and make it opportune to be a smart trader.
What's that about? I am by far an uncommon approach to trading options as I use very little of the Greeks. I can use skills well enough of finding direction for 1-3 days
There are so many ways to build strategies with options. Do not get discouraged. You will eventually find your way