Going to start writing a journal. Even if nobody reads it I think writing everything down will help me to focus more. I have been trading for almost three years. My first year was tough and my second year was a good base. Didn't make 6 figures but I did make a decent living and was getting better each month. This was not a great year...until December, then it became a terrible year. This is one of my worst months since I started. I never imagined it would be this difficult. This month has made me feel like a rookie again. I am amazed at how difficult it has become for me to make a few hundred bucks. The sick thing is that I still love to trade. If it was up to me I would never give up trading... but unfortunately I have many bills and they have to be paid...so I need to get this turned around soon. My first year trading I had to work nights and weekends....that was not fun. Again I am looking for a second job to make money. Having secondary income will definately alleviate some pressure, because trading is stressful enough, worrying about bills and Christmas presents just makes it more difficult. I have looked around for jobs, but in this economy an unsuccessful proprietary trader is not the epitome of a job candidate. Especially since I started doing this in college and majored in Finance(not a good idea in hindsight.) So basically I'll be writing my thoughts and trades each day. My style has constantly been in a state of flux since I started. News, technical, earnings, GapUp and Downs etc etc. The market has changed so much in the past three years. In 2000 it was so volatile and easy to make money. My style is now a mix... basically I am trying to find opportunity where ever I can. Be back Monday.