Start reading investing books. It will teach you that which you need - patience. Since it takes time & mental effort. Go straight for Intelligent Investor & Security Analysis
Everyone I believe has missed the main point here. It has nothing to do with trading and everything to do with addiction and being totally irresponsible with handling money. You have to ask yourself if you are marriage material. Your girlfriend certainly should when she finds out that you just threw all your money away that you needed when you were preparing to spend a lifetime with her. She needs to have total control of your joint finances and you should never trade again. You could not be trusted with a trading account.
You aren't a trader. Accept that and walk away. You have no ability to manage risk, a core component of trading. Please find another livelihood for your own sake. Good luck and I feel for you.
Take out a massive loan and trade using my system for free money: https://www.elitetrader.com/et/threads/prediction-based-trading.351176/page-35 If you're local, we can meet up and work something out.
You want the guy to take out a big loan and meet up with you to "work something out with him". So what is in it for you? Since you are promising him "free money" don't you already have all the free money that you want? Maybe I should take out a loan and get some "free money" as well. But, the line is probably longer than the vaccination line hoping for "no shows".