Yup, a battle with oneself, trading is more mental than anything else, if you can control / conquer that part, then the rest comes fairly easy.
Well, after my personal adventures this week, I am more confident than ever in saying that the stuff I read 25 years ago in Market Wizards and The Disciplined Trader are true. My relationship with the market is just a reflection of my beliefs about the world and the way I interact with it. I love being right, it was reinforced in schools, and I will defend my own opinions if not to the bitter end, at least until I am forced into awareness. You could tell me that this or that was going to happen in the market with absolute certainty and I would still find a way to sabotage my best intentions. But I think I can change. Anyway it's your thread I'll shut up.
Trading is about finding and exploiting an edge and having enough dicipline to follow a plan and not deviate and to always act in your own best interests at all times. So many people says it's all between the ears and it's all psychology, I personally find that to be a bunch of crap. Finding an edge is really really really hard. If you don't have an edge it doesn't matter how good your discipline or psychology is.
It's not All between your ears. It's just that once you find something that works, then you have to deal with your issues. Self sabotage is a real thing.
Not a criticism because I fight with this myself quite a bit. You seem to be happy taking relatively small win days and then suffer the occasional massive draw-down day. If you're going to have the occasional massive draw-down day, you likely need to have an occasional massive profit day.
Gains and losses are only gain and losses when the trades are closed out, show me where I suffered a "massive draw-down day"?
Right here. Now i believe you got bailed out and ended up scratching the trade or taking a small loser but that's still a drawdown none the less. It could have very easily stayed at a massive loss.