If money can't buy happiness I'll just have to rent it. - Weird Al (Sorry if it's already been posted, I didn't read all 18 pages of the thread.)
Mike, that's exactly why your independence has gotten you so far -- because the person you should have been able to trust the most (your parent) abused that trust. Thus, how could you possibly trust any other person in a position of authority? You've done it all yourself, and you don't need anybody else. This creates a vicious circle because the people who can help you the most are professionals in a position of authority, and as a result you delay getting the help you need. I speak from experience, my friend. Go do it now, and work hard throughout the entire process. Acknowledging the pain will give you great clarity and eventually happiness in realizing that it was not your fault, and this person no longer controls your happiness. Oh, and don't worry about throwing your shit around. You deserve to throw your shit around. If you let people support you, they will. Keep us posted on your progress. Regards, PTR
Congratulations. If you can keep yourself going and do reasonably well, you win. Own your posessions instead of them owning you.
Imagine this: You're having mechanical difficulties with your car, which is unable to drive any faster than 20 MPH due to a broken transmission. You take the car in to a mechanic, explain the problem to him, and he <i>fixes</i> the problem by replacing your tires with new ones. Needless to say, the transmission problem hasn't been resolved at all, so you take your car back to the mechanic. Once again, he completely ignores the root of the problem (transmission), and instead he installs yet another different brand of tires. You get fed up with the useless 'help' of this mechanic, so you try taking your car to other mechanics in your city- yet every single one of them is blindly fixated on tires. All they know how to do is replace your tires, which of course does not help you at all. This is exactly how medical orthodoxy currently deals with depression. "The problem MUST originate with a deficiency of serotonin/dopamine/norepinephrine (tires), it couldn't possibly be caused by something else, like an endogenous opioid deficiency (transmission). Therefore, all we will do for you, is prescribe one SSRI/SNRI after another (new tires) as we blindly and incorrectly fixate on the same old three neurotransmitters." Then there's the <i>creative</i> mechanic who comes up with a <i>different</i> idea for fixing the car. Instead of replacing the tires, he patches up the old tires and fills them up with more air. This is the medical professional who suggests St. John's wort and 5-HTP, which can only boost... you guessed it- serotonin. Watch TV for a couple hours and you'll probably see quite a few antidepressant commercials. The cruel joke is that <b>every single one</b> of those commercials is just pitching yet another serotonin/dopamine/norepinephrine re-uptake inhibitor product. "Zoloft didn't work? You're still dying of depression? Here, try some Paxil. It does the exact same thing as zoloft, but hey- give it a shot." <b>Medical orthodoxy's current neurotransmitter fixation will go down in history as one of the science's greatest blunders of all time.</b> In the future, buprenorphine will be commonly accepted as a legitimate antidepressant. The only question is: How many more endogenous opioid deficient patients must die until then? <b>www.Prohibition-Kills.com</b>