You live in New York. There is what, a million eligible women within a 30 mile radius of you. Your obsession with this "princess" is sounding pathetic as she is obviously treating you like a bitch. Get over her, find someone new, and concentrate on your trading. You don't need to hear this crap about her loving some other prick while you are on a good streak trading. If she gave a crap about you, she wouldn't string you along like a anxious puppy dog waiting to get her. THERE ARE PLENTY OF WOMEN OUT THERE!!!!
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i'll go out with you hitman. i posted my pic if you're interested let me know. you won't remember her name when i get done with you, i promise. hugs&kisses from Orlando Katrina
Well I have consulted most of my close friends not looking for advices but just to vent, and I feel much better. After all, this hasn't been the first time that she chooses someone else over me, and afterall she never committed herself to me in anyway, so at least it is fair and square. I wouldn't be myself if I give up either one of my dreams, after 3 years, pain only makes me stronger. As much as it pains me to say it, the dedication I have toward my career made me a very incomplete individual, the skills he possesses are very important social skills that I do not have. Come to think of it, with the exception of what I do work (and even then I can not say I am top tier at what I do), I don't think I am good at anything else. And too much competitiveness made me too serious of a person, as I clearly lack his finesse when it comes to communication skills. Not only I am 6 years younger, but I am too emotional and passionate to the point of seemingly unstable, that's exactly why his maturity really shines. Last but not least, on a effort for effort basis, since I started this team my free time has been greatly reduced, and he has been calling and asking her out on a daily basis. She admitted that both of us are too serious and neither one of us really knows how to relax, have fun, etc . . . and that is exactly what he does best. I know in a way she is hedging her position in that while she says she doesn't have feeling for me right now, she doesn't know what the future will bring. In a strange way, I am actually very happy that she actually looks at me as a potential safety net in case of unexpected emergencies, that makes me feel like I am worth something. It is my job to live and die with the market, it is my destiny to live and die for her. I respect her decision, this is the time for her to experience and decide what is her best trading strategy, but I will not give up, for I already found the one stock that I will dollar cost average into for the rest of my life.
Her leaving you wll either kill you or make you stronger. Here's the paradox. Oftentimes it will kill you, or ruin you, and she KNOWS it, but she leaves anyway, and breaks your heart, and humiliates you, but you love her. Go figure. No one should have to go through what you're going through, I'm going through, and about 50 million other guys are going through but that's the way of the world today. To many, nothing is sacred anymore. Not even their marriages or their own children, born or unborn. There is no love, and that's really all there is in the end. Without it we have nothing. But the funny thing is, if a person doesn't have it in them in the first place, or they've hardened their heart, then they just don't see it, they don't "understand", they don't KNOW. This woman doesn't sound like she "knows". She's an empty shell.
Hitman, Your brothers here all share your pain. We have lived it ourselves, some of us unfortunately many times. It is life, the good and the bad. The higher the highs, the lower the potential lows. A woman who has the ability to light your life also carries the ability to ruin it. Ultimately, time heals all wounds. You are a winner and in the end , things will work out.
Hitman You really are a sucker, aren't you? You mentioned that this is not the first time that your princess did this to you, and while you are now agonizing over her, she's out messing with some loser who "is not career oriented, drinks, smokes, goes clubbing, plays bowling, rents a cheap apartment and lives paycheck to paycheck." What kind of shit is this? You're better off without her since she failed the IQ test in the first place.
I think you need to pull your balls out of the purse and strap them back on. You said she was never committed to you, which she has already proved yet you are still going to grovel for her affection and wait for her. You are going to "dollar cost average" into the Enron of women. Learn from your mistake, like a bad trade, of falling all over a woman who played you and move on. You live in the land of Milk and Honey and it is time to go get your snack on.
Hitman, you're a really great guy. You have passion and love for the market. I mean all of this in a positive way. Love doesn't work one way. The chance of you succeeding now is less than 1%. You will realize later that you were chasing a faerie tale and she doesn't deserve you if she doesn't feel the same way about you. You will get over her with time and find someone better. Also, when a girl says "maybe", it means no in a nice way.