It is funny how when he is making money no one says much or he is a hero. Now that he is having a drawdown and having a bit of a hard time with it everyone seems to relish in the fact that they are not the only miserable SOBs in the world. It's pathetic. Hitman. If I was you given the response here I would stop posting or awhile. I can't see anything positive you are going to get out of a bunch of people who's only joy it seems is your hardship.
Or about trading 20k shares for 3 cents and ringing the cash register. It is not about shooting from the hip and taking your lumps. It is not about standing in front of a freight train or riding the river in a speedboat with your eyes closed. It is all about eating 4000+ calories a day AND lifting HEAVY DUTY!!!!
to me it sounds like you´re stuck in the well-known 'burnout syndrome`. in one of your earlier posts you mentioned that you cant afford to take one day off - thats crap imho. take a friday or a monday off, enjoy a prelonged weekend and stay away from work and absolutely everything that has sth to do with stocks/stockmarket/etc....give yourself a breather, man! i suffered from exactly the same problem and went off for holidays. as i returned i had a lot of the 'fresh energy' you mentioned in your last post. do yourself a favor! i can imagine that at the moment it´s kinda hard to take a day off as you became a team-leader recently. but in the longer run you probably wont be ta big help or that much supportive for your team if you cant give >100% just because your batteries are running on 85% only. think about it. take care, kev//