Take those long moments of boredom you struggle with and spend them anchoring these feelings. Anchor them deeply and firmly so you can retrieve them at will when comes a time everything is out of your control.
There's arrogant ego heads like coolweb who not many people like at all. The only people that will pretend to like you are the people you give money to aka your hookers on your arms. I rather have people like me for my character than for my money. Then there are those like buffet and gates who are humble and do great things with their fortunes. Thank you for reminding me of the person Not to become.