I'm no longer religious. I used to be. I was born Catholic and though I was never what one would call "devout", I still attended church from time to time (of course on the holidays!) and I had what I would call a healthy belief in God. The God from the Bible, or the Catholic religion. Then I watched a video a few years back that truly explained the massive and unfathomable size of the universe. I've always been a Sci-fi and Astronomy fan, so this video was right up the alley. I'll post the video at the end of this text. I was dumbfounded at the sheer size of the universe. Yeah, I always knew it was massive but I don't think I truly grasped the concept of just how massive it is. What's more, I don't think I actually gave conscious thought to the size of the universe and how it related to the overall concept of the Bible and God that I had faith in. And that's what led me down the path of discord. O' Discordia... (for ye Dark Tower fans) And it is discord. My life seems like it lacks the harmony I once had. I cannot reconcile the God of the Bible with the concept of such a massive universe. They seem to me to be incompatible. I cannot develop a theory as to how the two possibilities can co-exist in a logical format. For example, if God has chosen us and we are in his image, am I to assume there are no other examples of us anywhere in the universe? Given the billions and billions of possible homes of life in our own galaxy or even in our local group, how does God, the story of Moses, Jesus, anything in the Bible have any possibility of being even remotely true? Quite simply, they can't says I. Not that I believed them to be actual historical representation before, but now its nothing more than any other fiction I've ever read. I'm curious if anyone else has ever had to go through this. As I get older - as we get older, I think it is natural to start to think about what the end of our time looks like and what it means to us. Perhaps that's what this is. I've read the posts on this forum lurking quietly because I don't have a lot to add. I've tried to engage some of the posters here or in private messages, but I don't pretend to have the intelligence to understand what is going on or what they are talking about. I listen, I hear, but some of it I can't absorb or don't grasp. Other stuff simply doesn't ring with logic or truth.