I was supposed to be on holiday last Friday, but somehow I logged on the Internet and began to trade. Maybe my brain was not functioning well, I just went crazy after the first trade. Not only did I refuse to take the loss, but also I averaged in with a monstrous 10 lots. When it went against me, I totally lost it and averaged in another 7 lots (that was all my account balance allowed me to trade). With averaging in, we know what will happen eventually. I guess my fate finally caught up with me. I could have taken a loss of $300 after the first trade, but the 10-lot average-in cost me $4000 within 20 minutes. After the second average-in, my unrealized p/l showed a loss of $9000. When it went over $10000, I couldn't take it anymore and threw in the towel. Total loss: $10,950. I used to lose a couple of thousand when a disaster hit, but this time it was totally out of control. I didn't seem to be the same person that I was, I became a maniac, or compulsive gambler to be more exact. The kind of gambler that you find in a casino, the kind of gambler who bet everything on one color, the kind of gambler who went all in. I have finally decided that I am not fit to trade. I shall end my misery once and for all. No more trading. I finally accept the statistics that 99.9% will fail in trading. I guess those who discourage others from trading are right after all. I am at peace with myself: Trading is not for me and 99.9% of those who tried.