I feel that the root of my problems with trading are definitely tied to my subconscious. Has anyone overcome this before? I've read books on the subject, of course I never implement the exercises consistently in order to make any changes. I will constantly run my account up to a certain level and its like a barrier. It then immediately falls back down and I lose what I've gained and more and in 1/2 the time. I do things I know I'm not supposed to. And I expect it to happen and no matter how much discipline I try to use daily, I somehow ALWAYS manage to do those things I know I'm not supposed to do. It reminds me of what Ed Sykota said "Everyone gets what they want out of the Market".. Is this what I want? Failure, desperation, a life of struggling to get by, always struggling financially. I could go into why I feel this is imbedded in me since childhood but I guess that's better left to go over with a psychologist.