Bud, we had a nice chat. Just take a step-back from futures for a bit and collect your thoughts. None of this shit it worth your peace of mind.
I've been harassed so badly everywhere I've gone. Seattle in 2014 was awful. People were fucking DOG SHIT there. when I was out the door the community ganged up on me. That's when my gf was working at [ ] and her scumbag friends were [ ]. I've been harassed so badly since moving back to Hawaii in December 2015. It never fucking stopped. I hate being alive. I hate this species. I want only to be dead. I have NO FUCKING DESIRE TO BE PART OF THIS DOGSHIT SPECIES OF FUCKING STUPID APE MOTHERFUCKER, BULLY ASS COWARD PIECES OF SHIT. This world fucking SUCKS. WHY THE FUCK WOULD I WANT TO STAY ALIVE IN THIS BULLSHIT WORLD? I Think about SUICIDE CONSTANTLY FOR HOURS A DAY NEVER ENDING SINCE I WAS 9 YEARS OLD. THREE GODDAMN DECADES OF WANTING TO BE DEAD. I HAVE NO DESIRE AT ALL TO BE PART OF THIS BULLSHIT SPECIES. I've been harassed ENDLESSLY AND I AM OUT OF HERE.
I HAVE NO DESIRE AT ALL TO BE ALIVE ANYMORE. I FUCKING HATE THIS GODDAMN SPECIES. I HATE BEING ALIVE. IVE BEEN HARASSED ENDLESSLY IN NJ, SEATTLE, AND HAWAII. It NEVER FUCKING STOPPED. PEOPLE OBVIOUSLY IN MY EMAIL, MY FACEBOOK MESSAGES, OR MY iMESSAGES, IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER. THIS WORLD IS GODDAMN SHIT. THE ONLY THING I CARE ABOUT IS BEING DEAD. I HAVE NO OTHER DESIRE IN THIS LIFE THAN TO BE DEAD.
ALL I CARE ABOUT IN THIS LIFE IS TO BE DEAD. I WANT TO BE DEAD. I WANT TO BE DEAD. I WANT TO BE DEAD. I HATE THIS LIFE. IVE BEEN HARASSED ENDLESSLY FOR INSTANCE AMERITRADE REUTERS CE.YA HOWIE ALYXXXX NJ FOR INSTANCE ALL OF THE OTHER INCIDENTS SCUMBAG FUCKS THIS SPECIES IS FUCKING DOG SHIT I HATE THIS SPECIES I HATE PEOPLE I HATE BEING ALIVE I WANT TO BE DEAD ALL THE TIME, FOR THREE DECADES NOW, THE DESIRE HAS NEVER STOPPED. I DREAM OF DYING ALL THE TIME. I WANT TO BE DEAD NOW I SEE NOW HOW THIS SPECIES IS. PRIMITIVE FUCKING APES. POUND YOUR GODDAMN CHEST I HATE BEING ALIVE I PRAY FOR DEATH CONSTANTLY
I HATE THIS FUCKING DOGSHIT WORLD PEOPLE ARE FUCKING DOGSHIT THEY ARE FUCKING BIG MOUTH STUPID FUCKING ASSHOLES. I HATE THIS GODDAMN SPECIES. I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT TO BE DEAD
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU DROPPING IN ON MY THREAD? HUH? SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU SAY WHAT? SHUT YOUR GODDAMN PIEHOLE YOU STUPID FUCK
I WANT TO BE DEAD MORE THAN ANYTHING I CANT DEAL WITH THIS FUCKING SPECIES. THIS SPECIES IS FUCKING DOG SHIT. I HATE PEOPLE. I HATE HOW PEOPLE ARE, HOW THEY WANT TO DOMINATE YOU, SHOW YOU HOW MUCH BETTER THEY ARE THAN YOU. TRY TO FUCK YOU UP BY MAKING REMARKS TO YOU. THIS SPECIES IS GODDAMN FUCKING SHIT I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT TO BE DEAD. I HATE BEING ALIVE
I CANT FUCKING WAIT TO BE DEAD. I HATE BEING ALIVE. I HATE LIFE. I HATE PEOPLE. I HATE HOW PEOPLE BEHAVE. I HATE HOW THEY DROP IN ON A THREAD AND MAKE A COMMENT, AND LIKE A FUCKING PACK OF WOLVES, THE FRIEND COMES ALONG AND SAYS, "OH GOOD JOB RISKARB, +1 FOR BEING A DICKWAD TO A PIKER" WHAT A FUCKING SCUMBAG WORLD THIS IS I HATE THIS GODDAMN SPECIES I WANT ONLY TO BE DEAD I KEEP A TANK OF HELIUM AND A NICE REGULATOR, IVE PRACTICED LET ME TELL YOU, IT'S SCARY LOOKING INTO ETERNITY. BEING TORTURED ETERNALLY BY EVIL ALIENS IS A SCARY PROSPECT. PROCREATION IS IMMORAL. I HATE BEING ALIVE . I HATE BEING ALIVE. I HATE BEING ALIVE. HEL 666
THE ONLY THING I CARE ABOUT NOW IS GETTING OUT OF THIS CORRUPT DOG SHIT WORLD WHERE PEOPLE ARE FUCKING STUPID ASSHOLE BULLIES TO EACH OTHER THIS WORLD IS FUCKING DOG SHIT THAT WHICH MAKES US STRONGER MAKES THE WEAK SUFFER I CANNOT WAIT TO BE DEAD I FUCKING HATE BEING ALIVE I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS GODDAMN LIFE I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT TO BE DEAD I FUCKING HATE BEING ALIVE I FUCKING HATE THIS GODDAMN SPECIES I HATE HOW PEOPLE ARE I HATE HOW PEOPLE BEHAVE I HATE HOW PEOPLE HAVE THESE PATHETIC SELF IMPORTANT TRIBES I HATE HOW WE ALL ABUSE EACH OTHER I HATE THIS GODDAMN WORLD I HATE THIS FUCKING SPECIES I KEEP LOOKING FOR A REASON TO NOT HATE LIFE, HATE THIS SPECIES, AND IM REMINDED AGAIN AND AGAIN. PEOPLE ARE FUCKING DOGSHIT I CAME HERE TO POST MY THOUGHTS IN A FUCKING JOURNAL, NOT GET HARASSED. I CAME TO THIS MESSAGE BOARD AND MADE A POST LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO MEET UP AND SOME DICKWAD MADE SOME HOMOSEXUAL POST I MAKE A JOURNAL, THIS JOURNAL, AND SOME OLD TIMER GETS ON HIS SOAPBOX AND MAKES A DISPARAGING COMMENT WHEN I AM MID TRADE I FUCKING HATE THIS GODDAMN WORLD I HATE THIS FUCKING SPECIES I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT TO BE DEAD ITS ALL I CARE ABOUT, I DONT CARE ABOUT MONEY, SEX, LIFE, MUSIC, COMPUTERS, TECHNOLOGY OR ANYTHING, I DONT WISH TO BE ALIVE ANYMORE. I HATE THIS FUCKING GODDAMN CORRUPT WORLD THIS WORLD IS FUCKING DOGSHIT
I CANT FUCKING WAIT TO BE GODDAMN DEAD I THINK ABOUT DEATH CONSTANTLY, DAY IN AND DAY OUT, YEARS ON END, DECADES ON END I SAW HOW THIS FUCKING DOGSHIT SPECIES IS.. HOW I WAS BULLIED BY STRANGERS IN SEATTLE IN LATE 2014 WHEN I WAS MAKING MY FINAL DECISION TO MOVE BACK TO HAWAII HOW I WAS BULLIED BY STRANGERS IN HAWAII SINCE THEN... FOR YEARS NOW... IT HAS NEVER STOPPED PEOPLE HAVE NO FUCKING RESPECT FOR STRANGERS THIS WORLD IS FUCKING DOG SHIT I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT TO BE DEAD THIS IS NOW MY SUICIDE JOURNAL I PRAY FOR DEATH CONSTANTLY JESUS FORGIVE ME, BUT I WANT ONLY TO BE DEAD. I HAVE NO DESIRE AT ALL TO BE ALIVE. I WANT ONLY TO BE DEAD. JESUS FORGIVE ME. I WANT TO BE DEAD NOW. I WANT TO BE DEAD NOW. I WANT TO BE DEAD NOW. I WANT TO BE DEAD NOW. THIS SPECIES IS FUCKING SHIT I HATE BEING ALIVE. I HATE BEING ALIVE