I find this very motivating. To sit there and dwell on feelings is a silly waste of time. No one cares about your feelings but yourself. Get 'em in check and get on with it. I always like the line in Shawshank Redemption ... get busy livin' or get busy dyin'.
Or in the Fight Club sense we are all dying. From the moment we are born. Optional777 Have you read 'The Sun also Rises' by Hemingway? It is always darkest just before dawn. Runningbear
Actually, it is darkest when the sickening glow from my nicotine-stained computer monitor is stolen from me by the power company letting me know that I should waste less money trading and put it to more good use, such as paying utility bills. I could be wrong...but nonetheless, that's pretty darn dark. P.S. Went to Hemingway's house two months ago. I now believe his most influential works might very well have been inspired by mild hallucinations stemming from the intense heat as well as the stench of cat feces. But I could be wrong.
I think we can all relate to that...I think you would benefit from some therapy, or any other way to flush the negativity out. Putting it out in front of you (like posting it here) seems to be the best way to brighter days!
We all need to live in the present moment. What has happened in the past cannot change no matter how much we will it. The only thing we can do is swallow the past, no matter how nasty it tastes, and keep our eyes open towards a brighter future. I remember the days when I would visit my friend at the airport and walk down any gate with no wait in the lines. I would even walk on the airplanes and chill out with the pilot inside the cockpit while he played with all the switches and knobs. Those days are long gone, but the memories are there. The truth is we live in a new reality and that is what we must accept. There will never be another time like the days we left behind, but that doesn't mean we can't look forward to a brighter future despite all the raghead bullshit we must deal with. Time will march forward and we must march with it.
It's impossible to get away from uncertainty. Trading is uncertainty. The worlds a more uncertain place. One persons heart was not meant to carry all the evil in this world. The media seems to expect it from us, the way they constantly bombard us with tragedy. No human should be arrogant enough to imply they can handle real grief by themselves. If someone does, they surely have not known real grief. I don't know if your religious or not. But I am, and I'll tell you this. I can't prove God exists. There's probably a better case for his nonexistence. I can't tell you "why" God allows evil to happen. I can't tell you that he "allows" evil to happen. I can't tell you that he has any control over what happens at all but, I can tell you this... When I tell God that I don't understand why there is so much grief and ask why? He lets me know that if he wanted me to understand why, he would have given me the means to. Then he waits patiently for me to give him back, and to stay out of, his business. When I finally decide he is right and I give the weight in my heart back to him. I find that he has made for me, all of this new and wonderful space for my family, my friends, and my God to fill with love and friendship and kindness. Give him all that black, He'll take it from you if you let him. That's the only thing I know for sure. OH, one more thing, when the new space in your heart opens up. The first thing your going to want to fill it with is guilt "Why should I get to feel so happy when so many can't right now". When that happens understand that its your responsibility to show love and kindness and support. Its not your place to take on more grief, unless you are strong enough to take it from them and pass it to God to deal with, without keeping any of it for yourself. Pass a message like this one on to them and hope with all your prayers that they understand the message and can be lifted from their grief also....
Well, back to 911... I had friends... well, people I knew to be exact who was in the building who had their lives taken. *10 sec of silence please* Life goes on... yes... but still it changed me... It's easy to say what you are all talking about death, but reality is harder... it's just accepting the changes.