I'm probably going to call it a year and see you guys in 2025. I did this in my personal account because I requested payouts from my Topstep XFAs yesterday and I don't like trading them until the payout has been deducted from my balances. Had I done that trade across 5 XFA's it would have been a $100K day. A new goal has been unlocked. Happy New Year to everyone, even those on my ignore list.
I had about $1800 in closed profits from scalping 10 point 1 lot trades waiting for the FOMC. I told myself that if we got a break back below last week's high, short a pullback and just risk the day's profits and let what happens happen. It sounded like a good plan until I was up several thousand quickly and I could feel the scaredy scalper inside my head reaching for the mouse. I posted it here because I thought maybe the shame of not sticking to my publicly stated target would be enough to keep me steady. But as I was posting that chart my heart started pounding. I felt like I had been running for my life and had to stop to catch a second wind. No way I would have held that if I didn't go for a 30 minute walk. I set my phone to stop watch and wouldn't let myself come back until I had been out for 30 minutes or more. I even deleted my Schwab app from my phone so I wouldn't be tempted to look lol. I wish I could trade the price and not my pnl but I'm not there, not even close. What a mind f*ck this trading business is.
I'm re-reading "Fooled by randomness". I don't remember the exact quote, but what he basically said is that we don't have to "fix" ourselves, just finding a workaround for our weak points is good enough. It seems to me that you found your workaround, congrats
NQ down 2.71 % and continuing... SPX 1.90 %... Haha. Awesome. Reminds me of my 100 point short earlier this year. I was shitting bricks even after it was 50 + points in profit. I think that's when the nerves kicked in because I realized it would very likely go all the way to target, but it was a pain to hold for hours and hold through the retraces. If you're not a stranger to inebriation I hope you're opening a good bottle tonight.