My belief of a creator does not portend the creator meddles in the affairs of men. Either you believe he does or you don't. That can be nothing more than faith. That's not what I argue. The above does not affect my 100% belief that a creator created the universe. I guess i lean toward deism in the spirit of America's founding fathers. surf
People underestimate the power of negative forces in the universe. There is a dark side to creation, and this is as it must be. There is no existence without negative and positive forces colliding. All life is the result of this constant collision. There is no saving because there is no need. Hell doesn't exist. There is only the evolution of all life. Does the butterfly remember it's life prior to the metamorphosis? You will move to another plane after this. To where? Is the selection random? It is not for us to know. In this life suffering is our destiny. It is our preoccupation with self which does us in. We are given an out. Be of service to others. The darkness of serving one self is much more seductive.
One day you will know, that is for sure For me, I currently have 2 Gods, one is 11 months old and the other is 9 months old. They look very alike, but one has a snout a little bit longer. I would do anything for them, as they for me. Heaven, is indeed, a place on Earth
Then Epicurus was right. If there were a God then it is malevolent if it chose to work within a framework that is "red in tooth and claw". If it couldn't create an alternative framework, for instance one where you knew good without needing to know evil, then it is not omnipotent, so not a God at all. Even as a child you fathom the concept of existence without ever having to come into contact with anything non-existent. The same instinctive knowledge of good without needing to know evil should not be outside the purview of any God.. Unless of course a person is conditioned to believe you can't understand one without the other. The point is as Epicurus noted, your God couldn't or wouldn't have good without evil. Religious faith has a tendency to encourage that.
I'm okay with that belief even if I don't share it, because it also precludes the need for religion and blind faith in the invariable misinterpretation, intentional or otherwise, of the musings of goat herders from the Bronze Age scrapped together into a book.