I seem to be stuck in a trading rut - I seem to be a perpetual breakeven trader. I have good days and they are usually followed up with bad days. The good days are not good enough or often enough because far too often I hesitate on my trades (probably fear of failure). There also seems to be a part of me that has become very good at distracting myself from monitoring the market and causing me to miss opportunities. It's like a part of me knows i can't fail if i don't trade. The bad days are usually a result of impulse trades. They are trades I make - usually breakout trades that fail - that i know i shouldn't make and aren't part of my trading routine but i make them on complete impulse and usually end up with a nasty reversal. It's the seemingly uncontrollable nature of these impulse trades that really seems to damage my psychology and emotions. For some time I have felt like if I could string together a win streak that the success and confidence boost would do wonders for my trading. But the impulse trades keep derailing the confidence. The dilemma is how to fix what needs fixing. I have followed many of the discussions on ET about the mental side of trading and trading emotions. I've read Van Tharp and Mark Douglas (several times). I've followed many of the discussion of NLP. In fact I try to use grob's 4 stepper. I have tried to log my thoughts and emotions while i'm trading. I have studied Seykota's process of experiencing feelings. I've read and tried a lot of things and i'm probably more frustrated now than ever. I realize that dealing with (fixing, feeling, experiencing, etc.) my trading emotions seems much more difficult than the mechanics of trading albeit more important. I keep thinking something is going to work but maybe it's not something i can fix on my own. Here's a practical rubber on asphalt question - how do i break these patterns or loops of what seem to be automatic preprogrammed responses from somewhere inside. There has to be a point in the process of executing an impulse trade or missing a trade do to hesitation that an incorrect thought or belief is acted on automatically. It seems like many of the obvious emotions and feelings that some would say you need to monitor and/or experience occur after I have acted on an ill conceived belief. Is there a way to interrupt the pattern? And if I can break the pattern how do i know what should be there in it's place? It takes more than sheer will power. Hope that is not too much rambling but writing it out and posting it seems to help organize my thoughts.