Weekends are especially hard to cope with. At least at weekdays I have trading and errands to run. But weekends it's like looking at myself in a mirror. All you can see is the reflection of yourself. Can't even concentrate on studying trading and research on the web. Nothing helps. As of meditation, no success on that field either, so far. So the only thing I left with is drinking. Yeah baby, I am back! At least I get that temporary release from myself, from my thoughts, etc. (Well, you all know what I mean!). And the only reason I am writing all these, it's because I respect you all so much. Because the person who choosed this path of trading mastery is really on a search of freedom, even though this word has different meaning for each one of us. So my question is: Am I going down? Am I risking to be deleted??? Is anybody experiencing the same? Your humble servant of ET brotherhood, Merc. p.s. forgive me if I quoted somebody else, from the large number of books I have read,I can't remember what is mine and what is not.