Try to read something about OCD. It can be cured. The resources are available. There is only one step to make... And accept. PS: If you WANT to SEE some evidence, try with the blotters of MrBlack, or ehorn. It's up to you.
Actual trading could cause harm if the end result could harm the trader's soul, mind & body. Yes, many scientific reseacrh and news reports...suicidal speculators when they lost money. Virtual trading has no real effect..the money is fake.
One thing I enjoy about you Jack: you really enjoy learning and trying to apply it to every area of your life. That's a great example: there's a lot of people 75 (or even 35) out there who have rolled up the tent and given up on life...