depression

I live on 350 acres. Nearest house a mile away. It's very peaceful except when the pumpjack in the neighboring pasture is blaring and the wind is out of the north.. the birds and stuff are so cool and the cats love it

 

I find it's helpful to join and be active in a group centered around a common interest: cycling, ballroom dance, running 5ks, volleyball, choir, cooking, meetups, etc. What are your hobbies?

When I connect with people on common ground, many boundaries--such as gender, race, etc.--fall away. For example, if you have a common interest in running 5ks, it's much easier to connect with other humans.

 

Yes and No...Look at the Horror stories winning the lottery has brought those who won it.

 

Hello Laissez Faire,

Perhaps you and I think different. Let me be 1000% completely blunt and clear when I say this.

BEING RICH will MAKE ME HAPPY AS FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

I mean 1000% happy EVERY day of my life. Being RICH is the ONLY happiness I want and need to know. There is no other happiness to me besides being Rich. Being Rich is my only objective. Rich = Happiness.

 

Hello ElCubano,

I can only speak for myself and only myself. Being rich will make me happy and I would not have 1 problem on this planet. TRUST me.

 

I worked for a very wealthy tycoon , dude was scary never knew what he would be raging about . Beady eyes, very quiet . Over the course of 4 years we probably only shared 5 words and I always thought I was getting fired, made a product and then a broker started yelling at me and I cussed him out and got fired . It was a weird job. My boss there I met In dallas back In 2009 and Turns out he used to work for Ray kurzweil at fat Katz. Dude used to be a hero of mine when I was younger and thought someone else could tell the future .

 

Let me be 1000% blunt

You don't know what true happiness is. true happiness does not come from any external factors.

 

Hello stochastix,

But you got the land and the money, now all you need is some honey buddy.

Go get you about 5 women to date and have great sex with weekly.

lol

 

Hello ElCubano,

For me, I know true happiness. Making money and having alot of money is the ONLY true happiness for me. That is ALLLLLLLLL I need. Nothing else!!!

 

The broker was yelling at me after 3 family members died and I hadn't had a vacation in years , and I had pneumonia and could barely lift my head off the floor. I'm surprised I'm still here actually, fuck it all ,, I need to find finish my rough volatility model implementation and pump these numbers up.