Thanks fellas. I got this . I've got some plans I could use a vacation I've been working very hard and have made so much progress i am thrilled about but I push myself too hard I'll give those ideas a try . Most psychiatrists just prescribe drugs and they themselves are nuts and putting on a show , because truly they don't how reality really is , the honest ones say that is the truth anyway
you are making progress. see how terribly negative your first posting was. and see how positive your posting #91 is.
It's priority number one, Thank you brother, I know how arrogant sounding and self centered i must appear, it just feels so damn bad getting stuck in the lack of sleep feedback cycle , injuries all that human condition stuff they dont teach in school. I should count my blessings and try to ignore the atrocities going on in the world
You need to associate yourself with more like-minded people, people who share your views, people who are just as successful as you are, people who have similar interests and dislikes and etc. Join a meetup group. Or take up a hobby and go take a class on that hobby. Get laid!! The more you get laid, the more testosterone your body produces and testosterone is a bit of an anti-depressant. And if all else fails, you need to see somebody. Anti-depressant drugs have come a long way now and there are anti-depressant drugs out there that have very few side effects and do work very well. Depression *is* curable. Remember that!
Hey Stochastix. Depression is either clinical or self induced. The former is much harder to deal with and meds can help a lot of people. If you have the later kind this is typically due to rage turned in on oneself. Often the rage is hard to express and quite fearful and thats why it goes to the background and we swallow it. Often we are not aware of how angry we usually are. Often at the heart of it some more heavy rational types is to see how stupid the others are and it can go from there...or we could at a young age never express it as either the significant other couldnt handle it or we thought it too big. I am hoping you have the latter type as it can be worked thru. Never easy. Self naval guazing can be very difficult , the metaphor that comes to mind is the Uroboros, the tail eating snake. Meaning we can devour ourselves in our own mirroring and self-reflection. Best to leave that to the real pros and there are not many out there like that. Always good to make a list what you are grateful for ...sounds dicky but give it a go...eg that you were born, that you had a mother, that you have a great math brain that you are independent etc etc many would envy the position financially got yourself to but you might be thinking that they wouldnt if they knew how i feel etc ...one of the key tenants in life is not to judge, not to go up in the head as a defense, to feel as much as possible but dont identify.... i fail at this all the time...pathetically so and thus i need to be gentle on myself coz i can be real hard on myself and thus others... thus owning my shadow has been one of the keys for me. You have done it real hard like myself and many others on here...i salute you. best of luck mate
If you look back at history, the world used to be a lot shittier place and people were lot less civilized back then. I am sure countless people have thought the same thing throughout the ages and yet we are all here and we are all ok. Remember, you think what your mind *wants* you to think.
A close relationship you value breaks, it could be your partner, a family member or close friend, maybe it is your fault maybe its the other persons fault, how is your money going to fix that? The second thing money cant fix is health and suffering. You might get better medical care but it wont always fix the underlying issue.
money isn’t the solution to everything but everything is easier to fix with money. Take your first very generic example. Money buys you time to talk to that person. In your second generic example, money can help you make the right lifestyle choices (like not own a house in a polluted neighborhood). like having health, intelligence, or a strong family bond: there is no situation where having money makes you worse than not. And like all those other three, there is no situation where only having one of them is sufficient for a happy life.
Money keeps you isolated and drives away friends who used to be close to you. Money obscures the true nature of the relationship and gives you a false sense of security and affection from people that you think are drawn to you because of who you are but in fact were drawn to you because of your money. Money inflates or at least helps to inflate your sense of yourself to an unhealthy level that was not genuine. Money makes everything easy to fix when more real and arduous efforts are supposed to be spent to find the real solution and the root cause of the problem. Money makes you reckless and gives you a false sense of invincibility when you are just as vulnerable as the next guy/gal. I can list many more ways where having money makes you worse than not. True in the end, it is you that really made those bad decisions that made your life worse but money is a very powerful enabler.