So, it finally sunk in for me. Trading with my money is way different than my previous situation, which was OPM but had all the accountability of a demo account. I had 2000+ hours screen time, a decent track record, experience swing trading various instruments, experience watching hundreds of other people blow accounts up, and years of reading everything under the sun. And my first month daytrading Im having difficulty getting better than breakeven, though Ive dipped negative only once. Today had I followed my rules, I would have 200-300 ticks, but I ended my session "revenge" trading (though following my rules, I was not in the state to be trading and risked too much) back up to +40 from -10. Broke every rule I can think of. Cut winner short, didnt protect capital, averaged up randomly, risked too much. Shit man. Maybe Im just venting cause Ive had a couple of bad sessions in a row, but this might be harder than I thought lol.