I felt like you before and it was time to do something about it. My next check was to a real trading education site. Took me awhile , but I found a group that I signed up , I finished and I still have constant support from the moderators. All I know is I was foolish to think of ever trading without an education or support. If you love what you do, then do what you must do. Speak to a moderator direct, I bet you see a different aspect of trading.