I have a problem. I have blown stops about 3 times in a year. Usually they coincide with huge reversals and consequently enormous drawdowns. Like this weeks bottom, I was short ES at 792 and had a order to reverse and go long at 791 and an initial stop on my 792 short at 794. Some little devil in me (I guess he's called greed) decided to pull the cover and reverse order at 791 and so I remained short as we neared my original stop at 794 and I PULLED THE GOD DAMN THING! And much to my grief and disbelief the market didn't turn back and I didn't want to cover for a loss when it retraced back to 796. And on went the market for two days and surprise, margin call. I got out at 830. Obviously if I was better capitalized I could just sit through this painful short covering rally. But I think the problem would have occurred exactly the same if I had more money in my account, I would have been short more contracts. Normally, my trading results sans these blow ups are quite respectable. I have doubled my account several times in the past year. But it is all within the framework of these huge drawdowns, so I am pretty much breaking evenÂ@(currently down 2k for the last 12 months) I wanted to know if anyone had a suggestion to keeping out of harms way? I can't understand why I unconsciously have so much trouble with this simple rule. I think it has to do with wanting to be right. I practice self-visualizaton. I go through the process of being wrong, I let the burn hit me and then I see myself keeping the stop in. But in reality, I pull it. WHY THE HELL AM I DOING THIS?Â@And more importantly, how do I prevent myself from doing it in the future? Has anyone out there overcome this chronic problem and become a successful trader because of it? I don't mind drawdowns in my account, AS LONG AS THEY ARE A MATTER OF MARKET DYNAMICS. But when 90% of my drawdowns are a direct consequence of actually deleting stop loss orders and then watching for days in shock as I get margin calls, I become sick and depressed at my stupidity. I do have faith in my system. Sometimes it tests me with trades I don't want to take, but that is not a horrible problem, I still take them--when I am flat to open new trades. I didn't get a reversal signal at 791 I got one at 794, but instead of being humble, I waited for the sell signals which never materialized until 800. And lo and behold I had a chance to get out for a small loss at 896 when the markets retraced from HOD, but NO I couldn't bear the pain of being wrong!!! Instead of going flat at 805 end of the day I held on. ANd held and held. Until margin man came a knockin. I think part of this confession is a hopes of being humiliated into changing my behavior. Accepting that I can't be right everytime and moving on to more positive and constructive means in my trading career. All in all I think I am a fairly good trader and this really is my only problem in trading. I hold my winners and let them ride AND USUALLY, I honor my stops. When this happens trading isn't apple pie, but it works and my account grows substantially time after time. Someone please lead me to the holy grail of trading HONOR THY STOP.