six months ago, I was told temporarily laid off, I setup a 5k future account in IB(put more than 10k, then withdrew some to 5k), mainly traded sweet crude Cl/NQ/YM/ES, after three months, 5k is gone. then from this Feb., I put 25k (made a loan from my 401k plan), I started to gradually gain back the loss. then I put the bailout money back to my 401k plan this week. currently my account is at $4381.7 ( I withdrew 1k in this Feb., that means in this six months I gained $381.7). after six months in future trading, I felt there are tons of money in the future market to make, but when I look at mine results, it is very disappointing. I am planning to trade full time and forget about the call-back. I am ambitious. I have good sense of entry price whether short or long, but I am too nervous about holding. little noise ticks will easily lure/shake me out of a very profitable trade. when I sat down to the computer after the closing today, I saw I actually pin down the right intra-day bottom of sweet crude. but why I did not make profits? I am totally puzzled. in this journal, any comments/suggestions/criticizings are all welcomed. my aim is to beat the market. if the market moved 2points either way(up or down) in a day, I need make more than 2points to claim myself a winner. in my case, I only can trade 1 contract of sweet crude from 9:00am to 2:30pm, so the actual daily move will be from 9:00am to 2:30pm for sweet crude(IB will not allow to trade during 2:15pm to 2:30pm because the session is near the end). for example, if the day opens at 83 at 9:00am, ended at 85 at 2:30pm, if I made 2.01 points, then I beat the market, if I just made 1.89 points, I am a loser. I do not care about trading strategy, whether short or long, whether many scalpings or just few intraday swing tradings. if I trade a different symbol that day, then use that symbol's move to claim win or lose. I will start this journal next week.