When I'm winning, I feel great and like I got this shiz down. When the drawdowns start, which my rational mind knows it's a part of the game, I can start feeling like a failure again. All the negatives that people I know have told me start coming back. Thoughts of 'what if I don't make it' start to creep in. It always ends ok but these irrational thoughts always come. I guess this is part of what I'm getting paid for right? Can other relate? Maybe one day I will mature/grow out of this endless cycle of ups and downs?