I just can't do anything right . My brain's melted like a slice of cheese - I see what I gotta do and still do it wrong, I lose money every day and I don't even care. I've got 300 dollars left till I'll stop trading forever. It's not like I blew all the money I had - I've got enough to live without working for about 20 years and I'm still up money since I started. All what left from my discipline - is that mental stop which is 300 dollars away. It's very sad - I don't know what I'm going to do after those 3 years of trading -they were my best time of my life. I'm destroyed and devastated. I'll give myself last chance to come back tomorrow. I'll be trading last hour only, I think. Ah, fuck it. I never tryied to make just 200-300 or whatever a day - I just want it all and I finally going to pay for my greed. See what can happen. Don't be like me. Stick to your rules no matter what. Sorry, I'm drunk now. Hope you get what I'm saying.