I am a loser who has depression for the past 2 years. I never bought calls on DIA or anytign like that. I blew almost all my money in the stock market averaging down on during august, spetember, novemeberr. I I created those threads to garner attention. For the past 15 monthsI thought I was dying of colon cancer because I had rectal bleeding and despite numerous doctors aplintments and tests I thought I was dying. Months passed and I was waiting for the shoe to drop. The blood was bright red with musucs. Now it's been 16 months and I'm still heathy. No bleeding for the past 3 months (or atleast as can tell). I sometimes with I did have cancer because only then would I be able to see what's really important in life; friends, mfamily, and so on. I may not be dying of cancer but I feel like shit all the time (or most of the time). I get only 4 hours a sleep a night (at best). I am paranoid that a new world order will enslave humanitry.