Dude, it's obvious you have emotional problems as does Buy1 but he is a virgin asexual. Just get a whore man (legal age, it's not Nam, there are rules) and give us all a brake from your crap.
You are judged by the quality of your sources. The guy plays an idiot on his Youtube channel. Just like you're doing it here. Except you're not playing.
Now take your foreskin to a lady of negotiable virtue, maybe there is a Tuesday special and chillout.